Lethbridge_fusiOn

Dear Sean

2007-05-10T18:48:00.000-07:00

This is really
A Surprise after all the surprises
Your short notice is so sudden
Never thought of you leaving Canada
Summer 2007 will always embrace our memories
Here in Lethbridge
A small town that breaks the ice apart
The Beginning and the End
Till the day we cross our path
Once again friendship showers all year long
Till the day we meet again
At this moment I wish you all the best

S.H.E > your favorite Taiwan Artists
The song is dedicated to you!
A special friend

SHE - Xia Tian De Wei Xiao 夏天的微笑

I bet you will have friends to translate the lyrics for you
Still,
Gotta admit
You are a quick learner
Hope you will not give up learning chinese

L is being given an honest chance to say no
when you thought you were committed.
It's consideration.

L is passing up an opportunity
because the person you met isn't the right one .
It's patience.

Be positive and we are all learning.

Happy

2007-05-03T19:57:00.000-07:00

Overall Picture of Revelation

Be Prepare and Ready for the Second Coming

A Time for Judgement

Yeah I know... I have not been updating much since last fall.

Here I wanna share my most excited moment with my family and friends.
Finally I am done! The results are out. Everything is more than what I had expected.

Today, 3rd of May 2007
Rainy & Gloomy
Not a dull day for me.
After the last 2 loads of semesters I am back on One to One Bible Study with Pat.
A very informative session, we did a lot of catch up with one another and then began to talk about our trip to Drumheller. Many positive feedbacks and also aggressive discussions between the the theory of evolution and creation. Everyone gain something out of the trip.

Today I suggested to look into the book of Revelation.
The Rapture is a new biblical knowledge which I found amazing.
There were many different views about this coming event even between christians ourselves. There is no harm imagining how it will happen but I reminded myself to accept what others think at the same time not being pushy towards my own point of views.

After 3 hours of bible study, I was treated at Saigonese Restaurant.
Yummy! Tasty.... A Big Bowl of Rare Cook Sliced Beef + Brisket + Beef Balls Noodle Soup really warm my stomach under such wet weather.
10x a lot Pat! I love the meal and your meaningful gift.

Besides... Needa apologise to 39 ppl out there waiting for me to the Drumheller Trip.
My soul just can't find her way home that morning.

Pictures to Drumheller will be up later.

Calgary Zoo Take 3

2007-03-12T15:01:00.000-07:00

My Favorite Candid Take

Calgary Zoo Take 2

2007-03-12T14:13:00.000-07:00

Calgary Zoo Take 1

2007-03-12T13:13:00.000-07:00

没有那么爱他

2007-02-05T23:38:00.002-08:00

是真的放得下還是自欺欺人呢?
我真的不知道!
至少我一直努力全身而退
不在乎洗不干净
只在乎自己是否口是心非
为何有了勇气还是不够
其实我没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话就真的可以放得下嗎?
但願如此.
帶來范玮琪的没那么爱他
我可以嗎?

歌曲：没那么爱他
歌手：范玮琪
专辑：一比一

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

Ending the Lifespan of My Bracelet

2007-02-04T19:41:00.000-08:00

Sad :(
I lost my bracelet! I had been wearing it since the 1st time I left for Canada.
Never took it off. It had been a part of me.
I felt uneasy not having it with me :(
Disable! Dysfunction! Distorted!
This bracelet was a gift from Jason.
Mom... I am really upset...
Can't find it anywhere. I searched high and low for it.
I am lost :(
I guess... I dropped it on my way to school this morning.
Noticed that it is no longer on my wrist during class time.
I was totally doomed!
U might think this is no big deal after all it is juz a bracelet.
Replace it with a new one is the best solution.
I wish I could ... apparently this is not the case
I want my bracelet back
Gone gOne gonE !!!
GONE with the Lethbridge wind!
Probably buried somewhere within the snow!
Arghhh!!!
I felt as if everything is driving away from me gradually...

陪你等天亮

2007-01-20T13:00:00.000-08:00

Apologise to those who worried about me
too much stuff to think about
January is an intensive month for me
well I will blog more about it later
in addition, a summary of year 06 will be posted
along with pictures

I juz came across this clip
emotion flow along
Suzanne, U are the one that striked me
while I was browsing this clip
together we walked through such painful experience
together we learn
together we fall infinate times
still the pain is there
残废, we felt the same
but I wanna 陪你等天亮

In the year 2007...
now I dedicate this clip to you!
One day, Sometime, Somewhere... we will learn :)

许慧欣,潘玮仪-陪你等天亮

作词:徐世珍
作曲:陈界维
编曲:mac chew

眼看星星落下
窗外一点一点出现阳光
摸摸我的头
你说我很棒
我们都是这样
一面带着伤痕一面飞翔
难过的时候
有我在身旁
我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂
不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良
这一路上有你
我变得坚强
你知道我多傻
在你面前从来不用逞强
听我说说话
让我靠一下
想要幸福却都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕
比赛看谁早一点学会
就算逆风
也能好好带着祝福不再流泪
勇敢的飞
然后分享那种喜悦
有你在身旁
嗯……

Merry Christmas 06'

2006-12-24T07:09:00.000-08:00

HO HO HO!
Merry Christmas!
Santarina is here to send her blessings to everyone whom she loves

Jz came back from christmas camp
tired but excellent
I'll talk about it on the next post and pics will be up too

Merry Christmas from Far Far Away Land

19th December 06'

2006-12-19T00:36:00.000-08:00

Time flies,
Remember last christmas was a great downfall
I am haunted by christmas ever since
Nightmares awaken me
yea it is 19th again
shouldn't be recalling the past
anyway I will try my best to spend a better christmas this year
Kinna love this video clip
Enjoy!

The Nightmare Before Christmas- She Will Be loved

This is another touchy clip

我終於領悟了這個原理
計劃永遠趕不上變化
就這樣我學會了勇敢面對過去,當前,和未來的感情
跟隨變化, 接受目前的一切
美好的往事可牢牢記住
但如果總是無法擺脫被困擾的過去
那就太低能了
我要超越自己的計劃
享受變化過程
加油! 加油! 加油!

S.H.E. MTV-WO AI NI (FULL VERSION-13 MINUTES)

Have Fun Anna

2006-12-17T16:38:00.000-08:00

Airport Scene

The Rockies

Lethbridge Highway

The Rockies #2

Akiad's VW

We stopped by Wal-Mart

pictures taken while waiting for Akaid

My Favorite Pic

Safari feel

Route to UOL

route #3

huge christmas tree

memories in #701

route #2

route #1

spent a night with Anna yesterday
we did a little chatting
I was too tired
probably her bed is too comfortable
I fell asleep instantly
woke up early this morning
Anna is still awake
she is too excited
can't wait till she is back in HK
gonna miss her for a month

Akaid came picked us up
off we go to the airport
lethbridge airport
small ... but memories of sending Teng off reappeared in my vision
emotions striked for a second
luckily it by passed quick

time's up!
it is 7:45am
time for Anna to board
three of us did a short prayer

Thankx Akaid!
Under such insanely cold temperature
he accomodates me
haha
Guess what?
Yea... I am so drawn into the beautiful sky
started my picture taking again

we left for Walmart
I decided to wait in Akiad little WV while he went to grab his stuff
No Shopping; No Spending
Need more saving for more trips

had a great conversation wif my mom while waiting
woohoo! Akaid drove me to another spot to take pictures
the west side
10x again! The entire picture taking enlightens my day.
At least I get to release my stress
Being too loaded with the exams, gradings, careers
and upcoming future plannings
I had myself all tighten up

tomorrow will be my last exam
then I shall be working on my resume
before I leave for christmas camp

My landlord asked if we were free on christmas eve
while he drove us for grocery shopping this morning
Well, I am too greedy to fit in all the celebrations
Since, Yvette will be leaving on the 25th
I promised to cook her a meal
So, here's the plan
20th - 23th Christmas camp
24th morning preparation for Yvette's farewell
24th evening landlord's christmas celebration
25th downtown picture taking
26th boxing day shopping
27th -30th video marathon
31th Glenda's New Year Eve Party

Besides,
I wanna send Christmas Greetings to my family backhome,
my best buddies who are travelling around east Malaysia,
my dad... Mr. Teng, Julian, Janice, Andrew, Patricia, John, Sheng, Mei
all my highshool mates, oh Ika too since u are now in Kl
People in Lethbridge, the Friday night group especially the Postman family
last but not least.... DA NAI SAN & La Chang :)
(I mean Gail & Louise)

Enjoy! HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS!

(pics will be up tomorrow: stay tune)

Freezing

2006-11-25T19:17:00.000-08:00

It is -21 outside!
Freezing cold....
I'm still defrosting... jz came home
Went out from noon till now
I was too stressful
hence, I decided to join Anna for a swim
We swam from 1pm to 4 pm
Feels better
I had nothing in my stomach since morning
After swim, we had a sudden urge for OSHO ( japanese restaurant)
There I took a bowl of tempura Udon and shared a plate of soft shell crab maki with Anna.
Feel contented.
Now back to study :(

Hectic Week

2006-11-24T09:21:00.000-08:00

what is this ? GUESS...

the cook is enjoying his handmade sushi

dish of the day

I 'm hungry... I got to eat them before the cook does :P

Peter in the chemistry lab

The cook is so serious!

unfinish touch

step 4 : ready to serve

step 3 : roll it

step 2 : layer the avocado, cucumber & carrot on top of the rice

step 1 : spread the rice evenly on the seaweed

curi makan

yum yum delicious

can't wait to taste it

Woke up wif hunger this morning
luckily, Peter kept some sushi for me
if not I will hv to skip breakfast again
it is freaking cold outside today
yea snowing again
so frustrated ...
both meeting always clashes with one another
a presentation coming up
a final performance along wif a portfolio due soon
still striving hard to finish the boring novel in order to work on the book review
whatz next?
oh yea... the paper for sociology is only half way done.
after all these chaotic stuff is over... 3 finals are awaiting
I came home every evening with my back aching and muscles tighten with knots
Can't wait till they are all done!

Hmm at least I do enjoy fooling around with my group members
they are all insane
Eugene insisted me to build up a sexual scene
hello???
FINE!
They ended up persuaded me to play the role of a sex kitten
but one thing...
MINI SKIRT + NETTY STOCKING + HIGH HEELS
jz can't picture myself
ILL!

On the other end,
we had a little fun watching a clip regarding regressive behaviors mimic infantile in Animal Behavior class:
Let's learn about manipulating parental psychology:-

Family Guy - Annoying Stewie

November 19th 06'

2006-11-19T15:37:00.000-08:00

每一個月的今天就让回憶再次提醒自己的一段過去
留在我記憶中的人曾經帶給我許多許多辛福
回味时, 永遠感覺到一阵阵喜悅
希望未來的每一個月也可以如此擁有同樣的感觸.

Sun He ... never heard of her before
listen to her song after watching Kang Xi Lai Le
She is a psychologist and now an artist
Majority of her songs drawn my attention cz
she sang about the reality
Both songs posted below are my favourites
Enjoy :)

大力推薦!!很好聽唷^^

何耀珊-你的肩膀

那些日子當你不在我身邊
整個世界都不對
還能這樣安靜的和你依偎
受過的苦都無所謂
進進退退我們之間
故事有點迂迴
轟轟烈烈哭過幾回
從來沒有後悔
依靠著你的肩膀
有風的味道也有雨的滄桑
為我去過了遠方
還好愛是我最固執的地方
還好再長的夜總是會天亮
我終於等到你回來身旁
愛就是你的肩膀
能負擔我的所有快樂悲傷
相信你許下的願望
一輩子的時間那麼的漫長
何必在乎當初寂寞多荒涼
我們的幸福會在下半場

還是會想他-何耀珊

作詞：陳忠義　作曲：陳忠義　編曲：黃韻仁

在夜裡失眠　在白天沉睡　擺脫回憶跟隨
你給我安慰　為我擦乾眼淚　不問為何傷悲
我問我自己　心中還藏著誰
你越溫柔我就越後悔

我還是會想他　想聽他笑我傻
雖然此刻心裡充滿掙扎
我還是會想他　還會心亂如麻
我承認我還沒忘了他

你有他的單純　也有他的複雜
你的一切讓我覺得像他
而我只能裝傻
至少你的擁抱很像他

S. H. E 記得要忘記

在就要轉身前忽然又想起你
相遇的那一天漾著微笑的你
那個微笑還是很美麗
可惜那個人常常要讓人哭泣

太耀眼的城市不適合看星星
就如同你的心不適合談安定
謝謝你讓我傷過心學會愛情並非執迷
人改變不了改變不了的事情

記得要忘記忘記我提醒自己
你已經是人海中的一個背影
長長時光我應該要有新的回憶

人無法決定會為誰動心
但至少可以決定放不放棄
我承認我還是會愛著你
但我將永不再觸碰這記憶

記得要忘記忘記經過我的你
畢竟只是很偶然的那種相遇
不會不容易我有一輩子足夠用來忘記
我還有一輩子可以用來努力
我一定會忘記你

Went to church this morning
This song is not sang in the morning
but I jz kept listening to it the entire day
It lifted my heart
I repented
I ask for forgiveness
Once again I felt the presence of the merciful Lord
Please draw me close to you
nothing more...

Here I am to Worship:

Light of the world, you stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes, let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with You

So, here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days, oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

And I'll never know how much it cost
to see my sin upon that cross (x3)

Take 1, 2 & 3

2006-11-18T19:37:00.000-08:00

Before modified

did some modifications in these pics since they r already distorted while I was tak'g em

lethbridge nite scene : peaceful

looks more like a spider

Mall close

Can u smell the fragrance of christmas?
if u can't; ask Anna to teach u ;)

feel as if I am in a dream

we had loads of fun today (exhausted but all worthy)

memories of childhood

looks like a place for DOVE but No! It's Santa's mailbox!

I jz luv Unicorn; Anna... don't forget ur Magic Wand!

The Neverending Book

Gift of the year : WISDOM

elf is sneaking around

Dice up my Life!

Jigsaw Book

we r in fairyland

Are u haunted by Crayons ?

jz like kids ; not to deny, we r young :)

mouth close

open mouth

Anna u look like a duplicate

smile ! u r on Bee's camera :O

we r lost in the toy zone

old times

phoebe :)

Anna :P

both pics are being modified (the original is the 1st pic of this blog)

Our branch! Long lasting!

Oh come on gal, relax , hv a break ; hv a cup of Mochaccino!

delicious Yum Yum!

Weird? Wild? Wisdom?

2006-11-16T20:59:00.000-08:00

Babra...

Andrew coaching

Kat giving a speech b4 stripping

Eugene showing off his butt

Hmm whatz next?

Kat Posing

Eugene on cook channel

Whatz up wif today?
Things ain't flowing well.
Not with the schedule,
Animal Behaviour? never mention!
Well, get some ideas going on at noon wif Kat & Eugene.
Thinking tough! Planning hard!
BUT we got our butt kicked real hard after showing it to Babra.
We are all pissed off!
Anger, Frustration, Madness crumbled within our group.
Took a break,
We still hv nothing on
We are jz too tired to create something in this final performance.
Our initial script was ruined!
She really screwed us up.
Eugene was so uptight that makes him so f*** up!
Here comes the theme we are gonna work on... F*** Up!
No kidding!
Believe it or not,
We had decided to title our piece wif "F*** UP!"
Everyone was insane!
I did my picture snapping
Kat did her stripping
Eugene did his sexual pole stuff
Andrew was crunching away the chips & getting himself drunk on stage
Here's our piece.
Kat n Eugene suggested me to work on an extreme act
guess what?
I am gonna spray the entire bottle of hair spray on my hair through out the act !
In addition,Kat is gonna bring in a banana and a condom to spice up her stripping move.
Brilliant!
Man ... u guz r insane!
This living art is so sexual oriented!
Babra had a final glance at what we were doing before class ended.
Surprisingly she was pumped.
That's good news... at least we get her what she wanted.

老人多病痛

2006-11-09T14:43:00.000-08:00

天啊！

吃餅乾配杯茶；可憐的肚肚也受不了:(

竟然跑厕所吐了两轮。

哎。。。悲哀！悲哀！

可恶的是。。。连昨晚peter做的壽司团也吐出来：（

噁心的黄淡水留在口里，味道酸酸的苦苦的：（

好累哦！

现在肚子感觉空空的

想买东西吃

可是一旦想到要把食物摆入口裡時，

一阵恐惧

再次提醒我胃酸的過程。

哎哟。。。那要吃还是不吃好嘞？

真是老人多病痛！

不得不承認自己已到了那把年齡了：（

Cheating = Death Penalty

2006-11-09T11:23:00.000-08:00

Cheating = Death Penalty
According to Wikipedia,
cheating characteristically is employed to create an unfair advantage,
usually in one's own interest, and often at the expense of others.
I simply can't accept people cheating on my back!
Especially relationship!
I knew ... for most women who are deeply in love, will just forgive and forget!
I used to fall under the same category.
Forgive & Forget?
Really?
Can we actually live with lies and betrayal throughout our marriage?
Nahhh not for me, eventhough I choose to forgive but to forget it is nearly impossible
What is done is done!
The cheating issues will bug me anytime and anywhere.
I forgeive but I will never forget
there is no similarity between human brain and mother board..
we can't delete stuff with just a click
faith in relationship faded in me
We women are sensitive creatures
not that we will be annoyed by little things
believe it or not
we can sense the truth
We don't speak; we don't question
doesn't mean we are stupid!
Yes! if there is a need to admit silliness in women,
that will be caging ourselves in the world of coyotes.
Knowing the danger but still insist to hold onto it
I really admire these women but still I have say we don't deserve all these s**t!
I see no future without trust.
But I learnt to treasure the past and move on.
We are lucky in the sense,
that there is no need to deal with a child issue
we still have a chance to live a better future
Unlike those who are in motherhood,
divorce is not the solution when cheating happens.
After hearing an incident about someone I knew,
I feel so blessed!
Mine is just a mild case and hers is a disaster!
Miss Y juz got married for 2 years
her husband had been cheating on her for a year!
She came from a wealthy family,
innocently fell in love during years in the university
with Mr.S (her husband)
The relationship lasted for 9 years!
Can't believe things happen so rapidly.
Taking Mr. S as her main priority,
she sacrifice a lot
I am glad she is not pregnant
Just had her divorce few weeks ago
Her ex-husband benifits half of the pharmacy after the divorce
such a jerk!

Here is an forward mail from my mom to share with all my buddies:

Breakups: How men deal

From the experiences of some men and ladies they have derived some rules.

Rule#1 : Both men and women are better off having no contact with the ex right after the breakup.

"It's impossible to be friends with an ex!" exclaim many.

My friend Al takes exception to this rule. Al's motto is,
" We're all adults. And adults do stupid things. So let's not blame each other."

Al is the kind of guy who didn't show up when his girlfriend's parents were in town, the one you finally wrote off as a calloused, shallow player. Suddenly, he calls to tell you, breathily, that he's thinking of you. Can you trust him? No matter how sincere he sounds, force yourself to remember the night your co-worker busted him at a club with young Bambi - the same the night he begged o dinner with you because he had the "flu". Among his guy friends, Al is kwnown as "The Hound, and he receives from we men a certain appalled and loathing awe. From you, he should receive bupkis,especially if he comes knocking after a breakup. Tempting as it may be to be wooed by someone you recently separated from, please consider what I've deemed

Rule # 2: The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior.

So unless you're longing for a steady diet of heartbreak soup, tell your ex when he comes calling that you've got company, and that you'll call him back in a minute. Then don't.
The truth, however, is that most of us are not hounds. No, we're as confused as you are. That explains why, when we're longing for you, we watch hours of football on TV. Or bury ourselves in our work at the office. Or pull out the ice cream. Most of us miss you.

Most of us wish we could give it another chance, and that this time, it would work. So the question you must be wondering is, should you believe him if he calls trying to reconcile?

In short: probably not. In fact, in my experience, the more dramatic his gesture to "make things work this time," the less likely he'll be able to follow through. Here's another hint: When it feels like a desperate move on his part,it is. Desperate moves are not good moves

Of course, everyone knows an exception - stories of love lost then found again that give us hope two years, this guy named Tom was the perfect boyfriend to my friend Christina. When Christina pushed for a bigger commitment, Tom bailed, but six months later, he was calling, writing, email sending flowers. Christina was the best thing that ever happened to him. Having been in therapy three times a week, he'd finally conquered his commitment-phobia. He wanted to be with her more than he wanted anything in his life.

Christina took a chance. They just celebrated their five year anniversary. Was your former relationship like theirs - damaged, but not irreparable? It's certainly tempting to think so. But in experience, it's highly unlikely. Highly,
highly, highly unlikely.

Which leads me to

Rule #3, which is really less a rule than a speech.

To me, this is what a guy wants to hear after a breakup: Honey, I hope someday we can be friends, because in addition to the love and resentment and hard times we went through, I think you 're a great guy. But right now I need to get over you. Maybe in six months or so, we can get together for lunch and laugh about this, but right now, I'm too busy crying." Sad, but dignified. Hurt, but decent. Firm, but gentle. Because the truth is, I've heard about couples who broke up then smoothly transitioned to become friends or even the occasional booty call. I've also heard about unicorns frolicking under the stars in Cer Park. I've heard about this stuff, but - beyond Christina and Tom - I've rarely actually seen it. Delete his emails, his number from your cell phone, and any other reminders that might make you slip back into something that clearly wasn't working the first time around.

That opens the door to the better things that are yet to come.

救命啊!

2006-11-09T01:24:00.000-08:00

半夜三根胃酸,究竟是怎麼一回事?
快受不了!
胃酸的主因是什麼?
好想到自己的腹部一日遊
把消化系統裡的胃液吸收乾淨!
如果情況繼續沒好轉,
遲早一定會崩潰!
救命啊!

Body Check

2006-11-08T11:08:00.000-08:00

Just did my 2nd body check in Lethbridge.
1st step into the health center,
I saw a long queue waiting to have their flu shot taken.
Fortunately, I had make an appointment two weeks ago.
Since Dr. Makar is at maternal leave,
she then is replaced by Dr. Kennedy.
Had my weight and height measured before the entire check up started.
I am kinna anxious to know my weight
Feeling so positive that there will be a definate increase
but the result turns out to be the same when I last weighted in Malaysia.
Phew!
Hmm weird... my clothes fit well; not as loose as before ... funny!
Well, no surprise... height still remains the same all these years :(
not a single 0.5 cm of growth! So disappointed :(
A little chit chatting with Dr. Kennedy.
We talked about my past medical history.
Just found out from my previous laboratory findings,
I was diagnosed with Type I von Willebrand's disease.
Not a big problem... only mild symptoms and
for the most part these are manageable up to this point.
So no worries ... based on my CBC and iron studies,
I am not either anemic or iron deficient.
I have an excellent response to DDAVP and the dosage helps to improve my refractory epistaxis (nose bleed).
Dr. Kennedy, told me I have good blood pressure.
haha... that's becoz of my trick!

Peter bought me 4 rows of FERRERO ROCHER (hazelnut chocolates)
2 days ago :) 10x dude...
I took 3 pieces of it before I went to bed last night.
Ate another one this morning before going for class.
Took a couple candies on my way to school.
I had been consuming quite a sum of glucose since early this semester to balance my stress level.
That makes my blood pressure beautifully done.
I told Dr. Kennedy my problems 'the weekend fever'
She decided have a further check up through blood test to see if there is any virus attacking me.
BLOOD TEST again!
Bernice ... ... help me!
Don't wanna get poke again :(
Have phobia getting my blood drawn.
Still remember the last time I did it in the hospital lab, they tool 13 bottles of my blood. yea you get me right ... no kidding.
On the way to Calgary, they broke the bottles and requested me to have my blood drawn again .
What an awful experience.

The test that I will be tested on:
~CBC & Automated Diff
~FER (Ferritin)
~FOLR (Red Cell Folate)
~B12 (Vitamin B12)
~TSH (Thyriod Stimulating Hormone)
~UA (Chemical Strip Urine)
~CXR (X-Ray)

keep my fingers cross and hope for nothing big coming up.

Not in a good mood today...
Got my midterm...
60% of the class get a F grade...
Though I passed but the grade is extremely poor.
I am confuse...
I thought I did better than the last test but the result is worst compare to before. I wonder whatz the problem :(
Hence, I emailed Martin right after class and plan to talk to him regarding the test.
Hope it all work out fine.

Human Mate Preference

2006-11-07T14:07:00.000-08:00

Exhausted!
Finally... I manage to catch a short break within this week.
Had Criminal Psyc midterm done... debate is over for class of sociology.
Everything went pretty well.
Happy :) Long weekend around the corner!

Greetings to people around me:

Welcome back Pat!
Happy Burf"D Kim! U r blessed!
Cheer up Bernice! Be patient everything will soon fall in place!
Cheer up Zanne! Great stuff awaiting for U! The unfortunate incidents are over!
Cool down Gail! Be brave & get ur thoughts out!
9s meeting u Sabrina... did I get ur name right? & Welcome to Lethbridge!
Good Job Stef! Luv working wif u! Interesting stuff we had shared!
10x, Kat, Eugene & Andrew... we will definately come up with a masterpiece!
10x Louise & Gail... the BAO and Dumblings really did fill my hunger!
Have fun big bro Drew!
My buddies r great! 10x for sharing the happenings back home!

Oh yes!
A note for myself.... Be tough!
Need to get over the ridiculous routine of weekend fever!
Enough of the disgusted mice!
I crave for fresh air and sunshine!
Feel like moving but... it is scary when I started to think of loading the boxes of stuff I had in and out of the place!
Help me!!! Should I stay or move? VOTE!

I was at conversation link yesterday.
Fun! We needa act a short skit of a baby sitting scene.
Alvin, Soon, LS & me are in a group.
I am incharge of the scene played in the hospital.
Feel like I am in exploring creativity class.

As usual... I got my facial excercise done every Tuesday & Thursday.
Laughter dominates my lunch hour.
Anna is right! We will be blacklisted someday...
(白痴 are prohibited in cafeteria)

Martin is on Legend this week.
I am proud of him!
Should start working on my book review
if not I will have nothing for you by the end of this month.

I am currently bombard with the Internet Dating stuff.
Debated on this issue... and Rendall mentioned it in class today.
It is really entertaining to read the list of preferences of people whom are looking for their ideal partner through newspaper postings and internet!
The ways they promote themselves & exaggerated profiles are create to attract opposite sex.
Real nutty!

Human Mate Preference:
What are females looking for in a male and vice versa

Here are the facts:

Female preference in male
*age (older)
*status
*intelligence (education)
*dependable / reliable
*support
*all things associated with better resource access for females

Male preference in female
*age (younger)
*health & physical beauty
*low waist hip ratio (enhance the chances for reproduction)
*infantile facial (babyface)
*all things associated with female fertility

Hmmm... not to deny, good genes are indeed very important in mating

Allow me to fantasize a little
Having a charming guy who adopts sense of humour, romantic genes, wealthy, intelligent, & most important > trustworthy proposing to me under Paris Eiffel Tower....awww
DREAMING! :)
I hate watching drama... alwayz misled me into the fake reality.
Poor little maiden met prince charming... blah blah blah.... they live happily ever after!
Nahhh... never happens! Love is a battle! Marriage is a gamble!

I don't believe in relationships but I have hopes in kids :)
They are the most adorable gifts on earth!
Love them! Irrisistable!
Can't we jz have children without mating?
That will be great!

I came across this MTV a while ago! It is hilarious! Enjoy!

S.H.E 金鐘罩鐵布衫 MV

无奈

2006-11-03T11:43:00.000-08:00

我很清楚
也知道
再痛也要勇敢面对
我真的好无奈
好想就不顾一切的飞回马来西亚
不理智的想法一直都纯在
我现在只有一丝希望
希望身边的人
不要对我有所隐瞒
不要说是为了我好
不要把一切都描繪的那么美好
请明白我的任信
只求真相
虽然我无能为力
至少让我拥有剩下的时间填满回忆

I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing

2006-11-03T09:52:00.000-08:00

An old song dedicated to an old lady,

亲爱的奶奶，　
唉。。。
一定知道你不会讀。
可是无所谓。
我会通过聽筒表达给您听。

I really do not wanna miss a thing.
I will be back next year and still less than a year to go.
I understand I have no rights to ask for more.
You give and take away
You bought us for a price
I shall not condemn

The only hope is...
grabbing each remainder moment
treasure it and move along

Seasons may change winter to spring
but eternal love lives on within you and me
our bond
our love
our attachment
never fails
no matter how far we are apart

At times I have not been a great child,
At times you really drive me nuts
Still my life doesn't seem such a waste because
it all revolves around you

It is sweet to hear you say
I am here, awaiting for your homecoming
A sense of tenderness in you are seen
whenever you pull out my picture from your purse

Long ago, you used to hold me safe and warm
In your arms I feel complete.
Last summer you enjoy smacking my back
just to fool around with me worrying if I will feel offended.
Your warmth and affection fill my soul
from childhood to adulthood.
Things it yearns to remember.

Pray hard and stay healthy
most important > Cheer up!
things are not always bad
have faith in everything
the world will then be a perfect place
and you will notice it moves with such a perfect grace!

Artist: Aerosmith Lyrics

Song: I Don't Want To Miss A Thing Lyrics

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile I
don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
I don't want to miss a thing

萬聖節

2006-11-01T12:10:00.000-08:00

昨天是萬聖節前夕(10月31日)，
房东的门铃不停的响。
加拿大的习俗是每当萬聖節前夕，孩子们就会打扮成鼓鳞茎怪的怪物
到别人家去讨糖果吃。
我却哪里都没去，呆在房里写作业。好无趣哦！
最难忘的萬聖節前夕是在多伦多度过。
当年的我把自己变成一个女巫到学院去吓人。
回想起来，还真过瘾。

近年的萬聖節，都是平凡的度过。
就因为功课忙的原因，我一直在图书馆里打报告。
刚刚，我离开了桌位一阵子; 到复印机器去领我的报告时，
our library science prof left a bar of Oh Henry! on my table.
Bernen...
我真的被吓了一跳！我猜她因该不晓得我是谁吧！
不然的话。。。哈哈。。。场面一定会很尷尬。
你知，我知，大家不知！喀喀喀！

Daylight Saving

2006-10-29T18:28:00.000-08:00

What is Daylight Saving Time?

According to Wikipedia,
Daylight saving time (DST), also known as summer time, is a widely used system of adjusting the official local time forward, usually by one hour from its official standard time, for the spring, summer, and early autumn periods.

Daylight Saving Time in Canada begins at 2:00 a.m. local time on the first Sunday in April. On the last Sunday in October areas on Daylight Saving Time return to Standard Time at 2:00 a.m. The names in each time zone change along with Daylight Saving Time.

For more future information about DST in Canada, there is more information at this site
http://www.timetemperature.com/tzca/daylight_saving_time_canada.shtml

I had very much been blessed all these while... I think it is time he is ready to have me in the real world standing by my own feet. Trust had been put on me and I thank him for that. During my college months spent in Ontario, I met Kenix... a real good buddy; also my roommate at that time. She is the one who played my private secretary, reminding me all the details that need to be attended. There is no need to worry about the DST stuff... Haha... When it comes to my 1st year of university, I am so fortunate to meet another gurl who took over Kenix's role; Kelly. She reminded me DST... Faith drove me and Bernice together later in my 2nd year of University life and we became soulmate eversince. Automatically, Bernice became my right hand woman for the following 2 years. Fall 2006 till spring 2007 will be my last 2 semesters in Canada. I search no more for an assistant. Not blaming on the poor memory but my unorganized lifestyle... I neglected the DST and resulted is embarassment.

As some of you had knew, I was kinna commited to the kid's church almost every Sunday in CDC church. Thus, I had not been to Alliance Church for quite some time. A month probably... The funny incident is... I appeared to be the early bird today. An hour earlier! Obviously... I had failed to remember DST! Initially, I was rushing from my house to the church, thinking I will definately be late for the service. Under such heavy snow, I went straight to the washroom to had myself cleaned. My face was as red as a sweet potato. Frozen! In such a hurry, I left my gloves, scarf, glasses and hat at home. When I entered the gathering floor, nobody was there except the band and a middle age man sitting at the front row. I was still in a blur state... stood up and went forward to ask pastor Brad if there is a service today. Without any hesitation, he told me there is one at 10:30am after taking a quick glace at his watch. Watch? Time? It really hit hard on me! Then and there I noticed the DST. Since I was an hour earlier, it was still fun to enjoy the band. No outsiders... the room is filled with only music and me... what a wonderful morning!

Today's Sermon:

Ephesians 5:15, 5:16, 5:17

So be careful how you live. Don't live like ignorant people, but like wise people. Make good use of every opportunity you have, beacuse these are evil days. Don't be fools, then, but try to find out what the Lord wants you to do.

1 Corinthians 6:18, 6:19, 6:20

Avoid immorality. Any other sin a man commits does not affect his body; but the man who is guilty of sexual immorality sins against his own body. Don't you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and who was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourselves but to God; he bought you for a price. So use your bodies for God's glory.

Today's main points really did hit hard on me.
Our greatest moral regrets are prefaced by a series of unwise choices that we made.
We often seek excuses for our own fault.
ie: it is not that i wish, things happen to be, I have no choice, that's the way it is,
I had already tried my best not to... ...
Our problem is not being true to ourselves.
We never planned not to.... we urge for risk taking
Very often we knew that's the incorrect path to step on but still we take another step forward further till regrets lead to lies and eventually results in pain and distress.

Whenever extreme precautions are needed; don't hesistate! Take it upfront!
It is always wise to end your sufferings early .
At times, we have to go through the ugliest reality. It is cruel!
End it now or you will never.
Forever trapped!

To the married / in relationship couples: Whenever you are in dilemma of confessing certain issues to your spouse or partner, you are most likely on the wrong track. Back up! Proceed no more. People always tell white lies as an excuse to protect their partners but they are actually creating excuses for themselves to indulge in unhealthy decisions.

Overall, a great service accompanied with wonderful hymns that had touched my heart right from the very beginning.

Here is a song that compiles my feelings of the day

游鸿明我可以 http://www.5474.com/m/59836.htm

痛的感觉那麼清晰不论我再怎麼休息
总无法痊愈心里被你踏上了脚印
要等待多少次潮汐才能洗去
我的期待值得你等待就让它慢慢的来

没有伤害日月星辰交给我安排
熬过了风雪的阻碍远方还有一片海
一首歌就算打乱了节奏曲终人散之後
真心依旧能让你感动一颗眼泪如果不是那麼沈重

那麼不如就让它流再随著它蒸发在空中
Your Love Forever
每一次闭上眼睛你的容颜更清晰
记得比忘记容易难以更动的结局

我想我撑得过去面对不容易我可以

就算错误不可能弥补拿全部当做赌注
请为我祝福多少夜里有人为我哭
经过了追逐的辛苦回忆都是满足

一段路就算看不到远处只要往前一步
再一步或许就要告别辛苦
一个信徒一生只求一个领悟
就算路途就有些耽误这一切终将值得记录

Your Love Forever
每一次闭上眼睛你的容颜更加清晰
记得比忘记容易
难以更动的结局我想我撑得过去
面对不容易我可以

I WISH FOREVER
把悲伤写成日记快乐是你给的信
让你只看到好天气
爬上屋顶深呼吸为爱重新定义

真得相信一定可以
每一次闭上眼睛你的容颜更加清晰记得比忘记容易
难以更动的结局我想我撑得过去
面对不容易我可以
忘记不容易我可以

It was still snowing hard after the service.
Anna and I went downtown.
She needs to get out of west Lethbridge after a long week of workload &
I need a pair of new boots.
Today it is time to have a little push in me... definately hv to buy a pair of shoes!
Phoebe! Stop being so picky... U are gonna slip off the road if you still keep your old pair on.
I really love that pair of boots... Still keep it eventhough I am gonna wear it no more.
It was so hilarious... when I was trying on new boots; I saw my old pair struggling to search for balance on the ground. I wonder ... how on earth I can manage to put them on for such a long time. The soul of the boots were totally worn off and it slants amazingly.
Before the mall closes, I finally walked out with my new pair of boots from ALDO.
They are so comfy! I don't really like them at 1st but they look considerately good after walking on them. Phew! no more worries about getting a pair of winter boots... It really is a pain!

Had a great evening with Anna ...
Back in the basement working on my debate stuff... routine repeates everyday but with different task. Another day gone :( But I earned an hour today :)

手牽手

蔡琴: 這世界乍看之下有點灰
王力宏: 你微笑的臉有些疲憊
許茹芸: 抬起頭天空就要亮起來
孫燕姿: 不要放棄你的希望和期待

周華健/林慧萍: 沙漠中的一滴淚　化成綠洲的湖水
伍思凱: 真心若能被看見夢會實現

庾澄慶: 手牽手我的朋友
庾澄慶/李心潔: 愛永遠在你左右
張信哲/順子: 不要再恐懼絕不要放棄　這一切將會渡過
陶晶瑩: 因為你和我
吳宗憲: 才有明天的彩虹
和音
ENERGY: 手牽手我的朋友　　　
BAD: 愛永遠在你左右

張宇: 這一刻不要躲在害怕後面
蕭亞軒: 這個世界需要多一點信念
蔡依林: 那塵埃不會真的將你打敗
江蕙: 你將會意外生命的光采

蘇芮/游鴻明: 風雨過去那一天　悲傷就要停下來
動力火車: 感覺你身邊的愛它存在

張清芳/范逸臣: 手牽手我的朋友　愛永遠在你左右
周杰倫/張惠妹: 不要再恐懼絕不要放棄　這一切將會渡過
張惠妹: 因為你和我才有明天的彩虹
王力宏: 我的手握著溫暖的火種
陶吉吉: 散發一點光和熱就看到笑容

徐若瑄: 手牽手我的朋友
信樂團: 愛永遠在你左右
TENSION: 不要再恐懼絕不要放棄
老爹: 這一切將會渡過
庾澄慶: 因為你和我
彭佳慧: 你和我
庾澄慶/彭佳慧: 才有明天的彩虹
合唱: 手牽手我的朋友 (我的朋友...)
愛永遠在你左右 (你左右...)
不要再恐懼絕不要放棄這一切將會渡過 (將會渡過...)
因為你和我才有明天的彩虹 (oh...明天的彩虹...)
和音
MACHI/李玟: 手牽手我的朋友 (oh...) 　　
S.H.E/李玟: 愛永遠在你左右 (oh...) 　
可米小子: 手牽手一起渡過
朱孝天/周渝民: 愛永遠在你左右 (yeah...在你左右)

合唱: 手牽手我的朋友 (朋友...)
愛永遠在你左右 (在你左右...)
不要再恐懼絕不要放棄 (不要恐懼...)
這一切將會渡過 (這一切將會渡過...)
牽著我的手看見明天的彩虹 (我的手 ha...)
和音
手牽手　我的朋友 (baby not time...) (愛會牽著我的手...)
合唱: 愛永遠在你左右 (阿妹會牽著我的手...oh...yeah)
手牽手　一起度過 (手牽手...我們一起度過)
愛永遠在你左右
陶吉吉: 手牽手　
王力宏: 我的朋友

To all my beloved friends out there> this song is for each and every awesome people I met. Thankx for leaving signatures in my life!

Happy hapPy day :)

2006-10-27T11:01:00.000-07:00

Cartoon of the Day : SMILE!

：）start with a smile...

I am so happy today!

Deep down in my heart .... I kept giggling since yesterday evening. Done for the Drama group midterm. Looking at my bloated stomach I feel bad but everything is finally over and I am happy about it. I had been consuming a lot of sweet stuff unconsciously. I stressed out a lot from the beginning of the week till yesterday.

Not having our group portfolio put together really worries me... this is not the worst, our skit was kinna rejected by our Drama prof right from the beginning. We were brainstorming hard to crash out creative ideas to present out metaphor of the theme. "Life as an Emergency Room…”

As a group we went through different stages. Our first meeting was largely characterised by silence and uncertainty. Everyone was quite polite and generally reserved. I am thinking that all group members were initially silent because there was some confusion about what we were supposed to be doing, so no one wanted to look or sound stupid by speaking up irrelevantly. Needless to say we had a hard time getting the ball rolling.

Between our first and second meeting, we were thrown into a state of confusion as one member of our group withdrew from our group. At this point our group was characterised by pessimism, resistance and ambiguity. It was a tough period for our group as some tasks had been assigned to every member of our group. Besides, this member was our emerging “leader”. We had no idea where to go from here .

Our next challenge was to maximise our individual potentials by exploring our creativity skills and channelling them into coordinated work. Some of our initial ideas did not seem to fulfil the objective of our project. In some cases, we couldn’t think of the right symbols to represent our metaphor, in other situations we did not have enough people to execute our ideas. We were frustrated.

We were quite desperate to achieve our goals and it seemed like as we put in more effort, it got even more difficult to get things to work. Eventually we decided to develop a thought web again. After we came up with our new thought web, interesting ideas began to flow faster. As we came up with new ideas, we definitely had new problems too. One interesting thing though is that we consistently embraced each idea that was put on the table and looked at it carefully. We freely critiqued all proposed ideas and constructively agued the relevance of the different ideas that we shared.

During this phase, every group member was comfortable sharing his or her ideas and feelings. We freely gave feedback to each other and solicited feedback. We consistently explored actions and changed settings to fulfil our goals.

Finally, we feel like a team, especially because we really did not have a clear “leader” while we went through turbulence, failures and frustrations. After riding on each other’s wings and rubbing off on each other, we feel like we have explored creativity and have a beautiful piece of art to show for our toil.

* What happened is .... our piece is still on a rough side according to Barbra (our prof) 40 minutes before our actual presentation starts. CHUA SAI! We were all stun! Thank God! Taka cooled us off by saying: "Give her what she wants... changed the skit and run through it." Easier said than to be done... we took more than 2 weeks to work the skit and that is far more than impossible to change it at this point of time. Struggling to either stick with the initial idea or came up with a totally brand new skit... we finally did make a wise choice. Once again I learnt the KANASAI spirit "EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE" :)

Of cz we were under stress, butterflies' knots in stomach....

Fear had overshadowed our nervousness.

Guess what?

We did an excellent job! 10x team!

Fallon, Ayo, Taka and me, we are all happy!

Other skits are good as well...

but I really needa give tones of credits to my group members!

BRAVO!

We had the least group members compare to others...

no surprise, more workloads!

In addition, we are an international group consisting one canadian, Kenyan, Japanese and malaysian.

Good and bad in the sense we have our own ideas and it sometimes seem too diverse to pull our heads together. Still, the team spirit shines!

The actual performance is the best of what we had been practicing for the past 2 weeks.

I was happy with the audience's responses especially when Barbra commented on us after the performance.

"GOOD JOB!" she shout out!

Barbra was obviously surprise to see a tremendous change in us. She was happy!

Loosen my muscles after we hit off the entire skit!

I received good compliments from my other mates too :)

My group members said they are happy to see me out of my shell.

Probably I am juz too shy to act after leaving the stage of drama since college.

When we decided to replace the original skit, I was so in pain...

I am playing the main role in the skit and anyone who knows me well realize that I have short memory span... I don't wanna be the blacksheep of the group and really concern about disappointing them during the performance. In a such a short time we had, we came up with a new routine. Thank God! He is so merciful... allowing me to expand my mental capacity in that state of urgency :)

The piece flows extremely well :)

Thanx for your ride Fallon! RIDES I suppose haha... Fallon used to live at Laval Blvd (the place I am currently staying) at the age of nine. She was surprised that I walked home every other nights whenever we had goup meetings. From then she offered to drive me home after every Thursday night's class. :)

Most important > I wanna thank my buddies for such persistent support especially Bernice and Anna... They shared my ups and downs throughout whatz going on with me.

辛福笑脸就送给我亲爱的朋友们！

好开心哦！

Smoking during Pregnancy

2006-10-25T12:08:00.000-07:00

I am gonna kill u David Soo...
Of all the people U fool around with me.
The stupid spam drove me nuts!
Don't ever think of trying on me again
I promised I will definately kill u for that!
Anyway, enough of the silly con stuff.
A great morning of class.
Smoking During Pregnancy is the topic of the day.
I am wondering if it is too late to quit smoking
once you know u are pregnant.
What do u think?
A student in class mentioned about one of our
famous prof in the PSYC Department once telling
them how proud she is to smoke during her pregnancy.
Is she insane?
No! She is not! Jz weird!
As a matter of fact, studies do proof that
a certain usage of nicotine
will not do any harm to the baby.
Some ppl choose to stay on cigarette during pregnancy.
This is because they feel worst without it.
Cigarettes help to release stress.
Whether it affects the fetus or not...
there is no exact answer to the question.
I guess it all depends on individual biological impact on the child itself.
In some cases, ppl may argue that partner whom smokes might also
contributes to the growth of a fetus.
One thing for sure,
smoking during pregnancy cause Low Birth Weight.
Low Birth Weight associates with
1. Delinquency
2. ISCHEMIA (lack of blood supply to the fetus)
3. HYPOXIA (lack of oxygen to the fetus)
4. HYPERTONICITY (very tight muscle tone)

Some studies show that children born with
moms whom smoke during their pregnancy
are most likely to encounter conduct disorder
either in the early onset or late onset.

Any comments on this topic?
Welcome to leave comments and it is open for discussions.

Martin introduced us to buy APA Dictionary of Psychology.
I was searching such book to be published a long time ago.
Without a second thought I spent $67.79can in the bookstore this morning.
My mom is gonna kill me for this.

APA Dictionary of Psychology

A Landmark Reference That Defines the Lexicon of Psychology
With over 25,000 terms and definitions,
the Dictionary encompasses all areas of research and application,
and includes coverage of concepts, processes, and
therapies across all the major subdisciplines of psychology

Any Psyc student who are interested....
Below I attached a review of the book:

Book Review

At several hundred pages longer than other recent dictionaries of psychology, this volume casts a wide net over diverse subject areas within psychology's domain, and related terms from anthropology, computer programming, medicine, molecular and population biology, pharmacology, physics, social services, statistics, and more. Definitions are concise, plain-spoken, and designed to inform without mystifying readers. In fact, it can serve a number of disciplines because of the cross-disciplinary nature of its content…This is a reasonably priced work of great breadth and depth that will be a fine addition to academic and large public libraries.—Booklist

© 2006 American Psychological Association

Cherating & Yumcha #1

2006-10-25T11:58:00.000-07:00

Cherating Beach ( front view of our chalet )

John, Pat, Phoebe & Sheng

Another view in front of our chalet

A better capture

Cool breeze creates peace

totally fell in love with this beach

evening beachball scene

an area where baby turtles are kept (in the form of eggs)

A Beautiful Day

Hurray!!! It is time to get wet!

Paya Bakau: Aware! Crocodile's Habitat

Whoo Hoo! Out we go! Splash Splash~~

View taken from out chalet
( the only bangalow on the beach )
belongs to 4 of us ;)

High Tide

other houses surrouded us

they shine upon me

What do u think u are doing Mr Woo!

Sheng & John acting crazy
(poor Pat need to bear wif em)

Again... by the way how do u explain the posts?

Cherating & Yum cha #2

2006-10-24T19:23:00.000-07:00

went to for crab: Delicious!

Durians > King of Fruits

Mangosteen > Queen of Fruits

sunset

Coconut tree

Bee's Image at the beach

Bee's Image 2 on beach

our bungalow

pic taken without my knowledge

Sheng

Lovie Dovie: Mr. n Mrs. Wu

There they go again... Tak habis habis

Pat n John

Sheng n Bee

Pat n John ;)

Bee's Image (taken in the car)

John Wu

Pat n Bee

1st night we slept at the chalet

KARAOKE time

Took us the entire night to track this turtle.
Suppose she is gonna do her stuff ( lay eggs)
but she refused to ... n headed back to the sea :(

we are playing with baby turtles

Place we hang out most for yum cha purposes.

Pat n John

Me n Pat

Sheng

Mei

超倒霉的一天

2006-10-23T17:40:00.000-07:00

今天天氣確實超好但同樣地不幸的事一一發生在本小姐身上彷彿像是火星猛撞地球。

真的帶賽!

週末發燒就算了...

今天不幸的事可多得很!

1) 吃早餐時, 三番兩次的咬到舌頭。

2) 走出房間時, 頭撞到房門。

3) 微波食物時, 熨到左手。

4) 把家裡的大門關上時, 再次夾到右手。

5) 踏出家門的第一步就扭到腳。

還以為不幸的一天只會在作文裡讀到...可是它然而發生在我身上 :(

哎..... 從頭傷到腳.....真倒霉啊!

CON'D Summer 06'

2006-10-20T09:36:00.000-07:00

Challenging my memories.

Once upon a time...

there was a princess named B and a price named MT.

Haha chill...

Okay, here I proceed writing about my time spent in Malaysia.
After briefing over the trips made from Lethbridge to Taiwan...

I feel that my soul is still floating in the past.
Today I am gonna share my climax spent in KL

with awesome people I met in the past

along with friendships that are newly developed.
The things I did this summer varied

from regretful in decision making

to excitments in work and vacations.
I was employed by UNILEVEL

to promote their new products

in the duration of 8 days.

Excellent experience.. enhanced my social skills.
Morning is always the toughest part of the day

as majority of the people is at work.
Evenings and weekends

turn out to be crème de la crème of my work time.
Exhuasted but lots of fun

talking to people with different characteristic.

Environmental developement matters!

This build individualism.

There I go again... into the psyc... ;o
To me this is not a task nor a job.

It profits me a lot.
Somehow, the opportunity is granted to me

to put my psychological skills into partical use.
In fact, I only worked for 7 1/2 days

due to certain circumstances.
Lucky me ...

they did not deduct my salary.
Thanks to my supervisor Mr. Tao.
Jason juz told me I recieved my commision.

It is more than what I had expected.

So HAPPY!
Quite a sum of earnings in such short period of time.
I kissed most of my money goodbye in no time ...

No regrets... it is all wOrthy!
Part of my money went into my new investment,

Canon Power Shot S3 IS (the IS really work on zoom)

and the other quater

trades a charming vacation to Cherating.

Patricia, John and Sheng left me a splendid memory in KL.
Apologize for the silence throughout the trip.
I know you guyz are gonna kill me if I mention

"t***k **u" once more :)
It was a 3 days 2 nights breakaway.

If you are a nature lover...

this beach gives you a delicate feel of peacefulness.

At times,

I found myself being too engross in a world of my own.
The moment I stepped on the sandy beach,

a sense of calmness cools away my worries.
Seeing my shadow cast on the beach...

I know this is no hallucinations.
A tinkle of noise will just spoil the perfect piece of reality.
Horizons of the sea lavished upon me.

No responsibilities
No disturbance
No obligations
No restrictions
No time constrain
No string attach
No registrations
No deadlines
No prosecutions

另一方面,

每当我一个人面对着海阔天空的下午时，

沉默总是让我感受到幸福。
静静的望着阳光，渐渐的往地平線沉;
风连续的打在海洋，

散发出一波一波的海浪带我回忆经过的声音。
一阵阵的承諾，反反复复的在我脑海里漂浮。
我其实很清楚明白，我不能永远活在过去。
可是为什么我就是不甘心? 心里有问不完的为什么。
有些事情是不是不该追究答案? 眼前的一切都是真的吗?
我想的,我看的,我听的,我所感受的, 只剩下冷漠与无奈。
也许永远实在是太遥远。
日子一天天的过, 我的心情也跟随着大自然而改变。
在这里,

真得很感谢我亲爱的朋友们为我带来的一切。
他们的陪伴，确实让我摸索到空气的温暖。
那三天，我们的友谊发展神速。
一起看海龟，一起出海，一起看戏，一起喝酒，
真的真的很开心！悶悶不樂的心胸也在此被打开。

Haha finally I completed my typing in chinese.
Time consuming but not to deny, chinese is a language

that enables individual to express their thoughts precisely.

It defines the elegance and delicacy of each characters.
Back to Cherating.

Other than being surrounded by the divine nature,

we had great time tracking the turtles.
Never imagine myself holding a reptile.
There I did it！

playing with the cute baby turtles:>

We are given the privillage to 放生。
Again, I percieved the preciousness in life.
Seeing thousands of new born turtles striving hard to survive,
I feel truely blessed with every second I am gifted.
The bar is not crowed, it fit me perfectly.
New friends!!!

Initially, Pat and I were in the middle of girls talk.

We were invited to the dance floor unprepared.
Such a small world,

one of the girls I met is from Calgary.
She falls under the same category as I do in terms of height.
A gorgerous dancer though...
Stopped by Karak on our way home.
Keropok, durian tarts and durian mooncakes are all in my purchase list.

From then on, I mess around frequently with Patricia, John and Sheng.
Mei came along during her leisure time.
Old Town and 古船 are places we hung around most.
Atmosphere is good with live band on the run.

Oh yes,

I wanna recommend a beautiful spot with overwhelming view of KLCC.
LUNA BAR ...

here you can take your own sweet time

sipping away your favourite beverage

and enjoy the night scene which I always long for.
Not too crowed ... lovely!

What else I did last summer?
Karaoke...
frequent visitor of NewWay...
10x to my bro...

Went away for 2 pm class but somehow...

my partner and I have nothing to work on

so we decided to come together sometime next week.

:( NEXT WEEK again... it is gonna be a bz week.

I am now back in front of the computer at the library

continue blogging with my turkey sandwich...

Awww I miss BERNEN's sandwich!

Where did I stop?

Oh Karaoke...

Yes I did had loads of fun singing and fooling with my highschool mates and buddies. Did some shopping with MayC to clear my confusion. Luckily I did not bring much $$$ with me if not you will see tones of holes in my pocket. I admit, I am not a wise consumer. Shopping is one of my ways to release my tension and spare me freedom in times of complications. Eating is alternative. Mentioning about eating, I did not really go around exploring food. The restaurant named JOGOYA left me the best historical moment spent with a special friend. JOGAYA is located on the third floor (also known as the Relish Level) of the newly revamped Starhill Gallery. I was bewildered with a huge selection of sashimi. As if I am lost in the heaven of seafood. Furthermore, I get to drink my favourite fresh coconut. Yummy yummy... for more info check out this site

http://kyspeaks.com/2006/02/08/ky-eats-jogoya-japanese-buffet-at-starhill-kl/

Yummie Yummie

Spent most of the time with my soul mate: 巫婆萍. The entire summer went by rapidly. We went to Klang for Teng haha actually for Bak Kut Teh. Luxurious time spent at Teng's studio with Zanne and Nen. Our reunion brings back the good old days. Here comes the nick 三個女仔一個TENG. Great time shooting pictures and being shot. We put up a night in the studio. We left our beloved photographer the next evening. 三個女仔continued our journey to Sunway where we spent another night at Nen's apt. We only accumulated approximate 4 hours to rest our poor tedious eyes in Nen's place. That was the craziest night I ever had. Eat till Drop! After having dinner with Teng and his brother, 我们三個女仔continued the game of survival. First we went to KIMGARY for wings, french toast, fries, and a fusion of ice kacang (Malay for Peanut Ice) is also known as ABC aka Air Batu Campur (Malay for Mixed Ice). Essentially, it is a mound of shaved ice packed on top of a mixture of sweet red beans, toasted peanuts, creamed corn and jelly bits. The ice is flavoured with syrup and a mixture of evaporated and condensed milk. What we had is different kinds of fruit ABC. Delicious! Our next stop is LUK LUK (a chinese version of fondue but instead of cheese/chocolate as the base, it is served soup base) Another wish been fulfilled... SI HAM .... DIRTY but TASTY :p Before we decided to head for a nap, we lepak at a 24 hrs MAMAK (indian restaurant). The mi goreng is good.... not too oily... tasted roti canai finally after ages in Canada. Early next morning, we took LRT (C-train) back to my house. Zanne had her final request answered: my mom's homemade coffee. I never tried... never plan to... quit coffee a long time ago. Touchy scene repeated with Zanne at tears as the center attention. She had to return to Penang after a 3 days visit in KL.

Times wif Zanne: incredible friend with stunning characters Love this gal insanely. I don't think I am gonna find another person matching the things we had once done in KLCC. She makes a perfect company. We share the same interest in photography. Leaving footprints in Nippon Tei, an unforgettable evening. She really made a great deal in friendship. You freaked me out in the airport! My heart shivered with gallance of tears.

KLIA 123 ACTION: Checked in my baggages. Worrying if it will be overweight again. Fortunately not, way below the scale of overweight. Phew! Relieve....... I was with my dad and grandma. After checking in, I turnned around and freeze for a second. Bernice, Zanne and Teng had been sneaking on me right at my 1st step into the departure hall. Mix emotion overflowed me. What a surprise! Zanne made additional trip from Penang down to KL again exclusively for me. So touched. I know you have exams going on and you had it done a day earlier. Right now I am speechless... no ... wordless. Appreciate everything that u guz had done. Teng, 10x for the set of studio pics... I luv it! Nen, 10x for the necklace.... many of my classmates admire it... makes me feel proud :)

Finale: Highschool Gathering

Janice plays the main character in my drama. Went road hunting wif her during her work time :) Fun!

秘密之地: 我的家

秘密之心: 我的家

秘密之言: 我的家

秘密之食: 我的家

迷迷香香: 我的家

真有趣! 很开心再次和你相逢。记得眼前的一切是美好的。谢谢你一直陪伴在我身边。过去,现在,未来,都是我们自己创造出来的路。所以... 我们不能后悔。既然选择了,就要勇敢走下去。我会永远自持你。无论是福是難，是喜悅是悲傷，飞比(phoebe)都与你同在！

Andrew, an unexpected guest . Haha.. doesn't really talk much with ya during school years. But I am glad that we did catch things up pretty fast and have lots to talk about. Janice, Andrew and I went YUM CHA in Genting Highland one of the evenings. 10x for the treat dude! We had a lot of pictures taken but too bad.... one button everything is gone . Okay I promised to take more pics next summer:)
我们的约定！ Apologize if I keep you worrying, thanks for ur company when I am ill. Yea... I know I am as stubborn as a bull... don't blame me... blame the genes..haha! Poor Andrew... he has to put up with all my nonsense, wasting his siliva persuading me to consult a doc. :P 还是拿我没办法！ U need to improve ur skills! Try harder next time! In fact, we encountered sort of a similar problems... Well, we still have to move on! Gambate ne!

Went to bible study once with MayC and Ivan. The group is dominated by student in UM. It is my problem. I am just not used to the way it is constructed. Still searching for a church that is parallel to CDC (College Drive Church). Went yum cha with Mayc, Ivan, Gun Yoon, Gin Li, Eevonne, Tuck Soon, ChongEe... once ... some twice trying to catch up with everyone. I was surprise that Joseph is married. Unexpected!

Andy and Zhi Kai remains the same ... not much change... still fills with humour Hey Andy, Wanna thank you on your offer fetching Suzanne wee hours in the morning. I owe you one!

That's pretty much everything. Try not to get into so many details but seems like it is kinna long winded.

Not gonna talk about my nieces and nephews that will fill another page of my blog. Hehe by the way, they are all adorable, can't get my hands off them :P

让时间开口

2006-10-18T23:03:00.000-07:00

十九號再次到來, 留下的傷痕每個月的今天重新復發. 既然逃脫不了就只好让时间去漸消過去的記憶. 可笑的是... 一向從不把每個月的十九號當回事的我此後一直回憶起往事.

张智成

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歌词 LRC

脚步重心口痛你开始泪流
太明白在未来已不能迁就
应验了一开始有人说
我们一定不会长久
泪干了各自走不会有挽留
现在就放开不会再牵的手
没有错我们并没有错
只是走不到最后
从头到尾安静地承受
分开的默契我们都有
所有的想念和问候
留作以后朋友代口
当时间缓缓流走
已不适合再开口
背影随沉默拉长
所有答案都在心上
会代替我们开口
寂寞再回到身旁
爱情留待别人遇上
时间会代我开口
时间会代你开口
时间会索你所有
过去现在或以后

我会打中文字咯！

2006-10-16T14:10:00.000-07:00

好幸福哦！
昨天晚上和Ａｎｎａ一起蹲在ＭＡＲＣＩ前面吃晚饭。。。
Ｂｅｒｎｉｃｅ．．．　你是否还记得我们往年的日子？
好想你啊！
今年的初雪就在今日也就是本小姐我第一次使用中文字新的一天。
本来想要把雪景拍下好让你感受感受当初你在加拿大的画面，可惜的是我大老早就冲冲忙忙的出门去了。忘了带相机　：（　
哎哟！打中文还真不容易啊！
今天就练到这里啦！
要去开会了！
再会！

Fresh in the morning; Dead in the evening

2006-10-15T14:28:00.000-07:00

Since I spent 3 quarters of my day in bed yesterday... I woke up fresh this morning.
Fever is gone. Not much aching. Basically I am in good shape.
Took a warm shower before going to church. I had actually called to inform my absence for kids' church cz my temperature keeps ascending yesterday evening.
Wanted to show up badly but I decided not finally.
Afraid to pass the germs around especially to the kid.
:)... my prayer is answered.
My desire to attend the kids' church had been fulfilled.
Today is Harvest Festival but we celebrated Thanksgiving in the noon.
Enjoy the video clips shown this morning. Beautiful Africans! If I am right... they sang in Swahili (the Bantu language of the Swahili people, used also as a lingua franca in Tanzania, Kenya, and parts of the Democratic Republic of the Congo).
I learnt a little during college years in Halmilton from my choir group.
Don't ask me... I had returned everything to my friends... jz manage to recognize the language but not being able to comprehend a single word. Too Bad!
I proceed to the treasure island room at 10:40am with the children.
We sang for a while and then it is GAMES TIME!!!
I am suppose to help out ... ... but I played around at times when I am not in need.
Two grade 9 students help me out with the kids.
I am in charge of a counter where... kids can come and do their creative mix and match;
fruits or veggies before aiming right at the holes to throw the things they picked on a board decorated with a cute little strawman.
Several games going on at the same time as kids are divided into groups categorized by their age.
We had fun and lots of rock and roll going around the room.
Before the games are over, I shifted myself to a desk filled with crayons.
There I met Abby ... an adorable kid searching for a variance in brown. Kids today are smart!
A three or four years old kid had already obtained the knowledge of gradients in color.
I don't remember me or any friends of mine capable of doing that in our childhood years.
Gotta admit... child development is significant.
I am gonna educate my baby once the zigot is formed.
Dreaming... Yea I am! Craving for one :)
Met the rest of the international students at noon.
We had a big feast.
Filled my stomach and left for school again.
Have to meet my group members for the exploring creativity class!
:( back to the brainstorming time....
The temperature is back again. I wonder if stress correlates with temperature.
I feel weak... and tired... probably it is the side effect after eating too much turkey.
Hope to wake up brand new again tomorrow.
Can't afford to get sick now.
Portfolio due in 2 weeks... midterms on the way... book review dued end of the month... presentations and debates coming up....
Better stop thinking and start working on them.

Collapse

2006-10-13T14:06:00.000-07:00

Whole body is aching.
Muscles tighten.
Thousands of dead cells flowing in my blood stream.
Exhausted.
Images spinning in my head.
Heavy
Chaotic
Darkness
I wish I am home
Crawling into my warm blanket.
Anna is right.
I am falling apart.
Sick!
Arghhhh.........

DUPLICATE

2006-10-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

只要你一笑我就又都不介意根本已經為你失去我平常的冷靜
就像地心引力無法抗拒一吋一吋深深的被你吸引
人群之中我只能看見你日記裡都有你存在的意義

我一定要你知道你是我的能量和空氣
快樂人生的必需品沒有你我的DV就要關機

別誤會... 這不是戀愛 :)

Fall semester 06"

Juz met *&^% yesterday...

Oooo his blue eyes...

fell in love with the blue eyes...

Anna... I know you are gonna laugh till ur jaw drops when you read this.

It is always my pleasure to make your day.

I juz noticed there is a younger duplicate *&^% in my exploring creativity class. I am always too tired to observe the ongoing in class ... in fact I need to tell the truth... awful activities! Not Creative at all! But, since another pair of blue eyes striked on me yesterday... I changed my mind.

Hah... %^&* is as bald as *&^%. A little more hair growing compare to *&^%. I was so depress after the group meet. Walking with my head dangling down towards the class. That instant when I pull myself up I saw %^&* . We nodded at each other. I paused... who am I nodding to? He seems so familiar... After the group discussion, everyone returned to class. Only I noticed %^&* is in my class... haha finally there is a target for me to aim on when I am bored during the lecture.

I met %^&* again after my criminal psyc class. What a morning :) As usual... we nodded. Kinna weird but at least it makes my day.

Enough of *&^% and %^&* ... Class at 2pm... CHAO!

花香

2006-10-13T10:34:00.000-07:00

花香 is the song that I wanna dedicate to all my best buddies in Malaysia especially Bernice, Suzanne, Teng, and Janice.
The friendship is always there and never be forgotten.

Remember the time spent with Bernice from 2003 to 2006...
I knew this girl here in Lethbridge.
She enlightened my life..
We are jz like dizygotic twins.. 10x for your companion :)

Zanne comes after Teng
They are both funny but a true friend and a great source of support.
Our friendship developed in no time... it is like several missing piece of puzzles that were put together.
Zanne is a splendid companion when it comes to blogging... photography... not excluding eating haha... she is a strong competitor.
Teng.. well, I gotta call him my DAD I suppose.
Admire his talent... such a well spread person. Totally an artistic freak!
10x for the studio pics!

Janice... Hah... if I am gonna write about you there will have to be a novel long.
My highschool mate... my dad too! Yea you get me right.. . she is my dad..
I spent loads of noon with her during summer... We did our *thing*...
Of all places... she chose my house to have her lunch break!
We did have lots of *FAN* and FUN...

The fragrance of friendship is stuck with me forever!
Looking forward to our next reunion .

花香
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风没有方向的吹来　
雨也跟着悲伤起来
没有人能告诉我　爱是在什么时候悄悄走开

风伴着花谢了又开　
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白　你抱着紫色的梦选择等待

记忆是阵阵花香　我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光　难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里你比我勇敢

记忆是阵阵花香　一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光　把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在　就像我的爱

风伴着花谢了又开　
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白　你抱着紫色的梦选择等待

记忆是阵阵花香　我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光　难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里你比我勇敢

记忆是阵阵花香　一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光　把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在　就像我的爱

记忆是阵阵花香　我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光　难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里你比我勇敢

记忆是阵阵花香　一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光　把我的未来填满
风吹起花的香味　就像你的爱

作词：陈信荣　作曲：周传雄　演唱：许绍洋

曾经太年轻 & 沿海地带

2006-10-06T12:48:00.000-07:00

Ever since the day I left KL...
There isn't much emotion going on
An excuse
for not facing my true self

Again
I am lost

Yes
to the past one month

No
so far from yesterday till today

But
history repeats
this is life

曾经太年轻 and 沿海地带
the lyrics potray the path I had once been through

The Hospital is an exact metaphore of today's society.
Pressure...
Betrayal...
Competitors...
Challenge...
Media...
Benifits...
Birth...
Illness...
Death...

still life goes on
a stage to live on

曾经太年轻

所属专辑：白色巨塔

窗外风铃一直不安静
风在摇晃不安的宿命
我聆听... ... ... ...
你回忆经过的声音
开始旅行寂寞很清醒
我在靠近过去的边境
有些
恋人只是路过时的风景

曾经太过年轻
却绝对真心
我给的爱始终任性
不懂花开只一次的爱情

曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还... ...
相信

直到如今
你说爱的那封信
我一直都收藏着
折叠用心
让誓言干净

曾经太过年轻
在人海飘零
那些关于我的事情
总有你紧紧跟随的身影

曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还... ...
相信

沿海地带

所属专辑： 天堂来的孩子

空荡荡的月台
入秋微凉的海
微风把脚下的树叶都吹开
火车就要出发催促我快离开

我的心已超载
你不了解的爱
当失望逐渐将一切都掩埋
没想到害怕更真实存在

在沿海地带放逐我的爱
孤单也很精采
我相信我们都有该去的未来
不该在原地徘徊

我其实很明白
梦醒了就不在
只是还挣扎着不让他离开
紧紧抓着的也都是空白

在沿海地带我远远离开
要更自由自在
不要我的心随着大厅的钟摆
停留在原地感慨

Urbana 06'

2006-09-26T13:28:00.000-07:00

Hurray!!!
With all the upcoming stress... I had set myself a route to look forward to... URBANA here I come!
Work hard... Study hard... Strive hard through the semester... URBANA is waitng down the road.
Yeah most of you might be thinking what the !@#$ I am talking about.
Right here Right now I am gonna tell you what URBANA 06' is
I am filled with fascinations ... bear with my odd writting.
Urbana is an exciting meeting for students from all over the world. As a Christian international student, there is a special track for us. Lethbridge might be planning to send a bus if enough students sign up- Canadians and internationals. Thus, we can save on the airfare. As I was told, this will be a very meaningful conference.
I did struggled a couple of times before making the decision. Though I need to sacrifice a couple of trips but juz for URBANA 06' anything is worth it!
I woke up early this morning and registered myself. Wanna thank Anna for helping me to search for my accomodation. I was silly enough to search the hotels from Yahoo! Hah... Well, everything is done and I am glad to be the early bird having the opportunity to enjoy $75 USD off my trip.
Other than that, I heard that IVCF is doing some fund raising to lower the cost.
Can't wait to meet & share experiences of others everywhere around the world.
I would be staying at the: Millennium
200 South 4th St. St. Louis, MO 63102
http://www.millenniumhotels.com/MCIL.nsf/LU_ACC/111$$GuestRooms$$StandardRoom?OpenDocument

Urbana 06' starts from 27th of December 06 & ends at 31st December 06'.
There are several tracks open to us. I choose the international student track.
Here I attach the site where you can view a "Flash" version of the video

http://www.urbana.org/u2003.mediaplayer.summ.cfm

http://ifellowship.us/ISTrack/

Several IVCF members have signed up... For the rest of you who are still interested,
Wait no more and come join us!

Check out this site for more information about URBANA 06'
http://www.myspace.com/urbana06

Playing Fair

2006-09-25T14:43:00.000-07:00

I am not done telling my summer stories.. well, Gotta spend sometime digging out the special moments I had once spent with all my beloved buddies. Luv to pin each and every details down, so I am not going to talk about it now...

Today I just wanna share my experience being with kids at Sunday school.

Yesterday, I was helping out with children activities in church.

Though I missed a really well done drama acted out during the service but I am lucky enough to have Pat telling me the entire story and there I have a crystal clear picture of the whole happenings. Credit goes to Pat, Thanks! It was the first time assisting and dealing with 10 kids. I was nervous and worried that I can't manage them. A bundle of WHAT IF Questions blow into my thoughts.

Thank God! They are so adorable and I feel at ease being with all these kids.

The past sleepless weeks drove me into insanity. Again, with the upcoming term test along with a full load of concerns regarding my future career and the current situation decrease my dopamine level. Things are getting quick in happening but slow in progressing. My neurotransmitters wrinkle up into knots.

Feel really fortunate and blessed in time like this... GOd is merciful to have me surrounded by little angles.

Here comes a mischievous little guy named Ethen. He calls himself Bob.. the Sponge Bob...

While I was introducing myself to the rest of the class, he named me BOB too!

So this turned outo to be 2 BOBs in the class. He will take the BOB #1 and I will be the #2.

The teacher assigned some craft work and I have lots of fun with them. Later, we did the Hang Man Word Puzzle. Yeah ... not to deny, there is a cocktail of chemical that runs in today's generation. These kids are smart!

On my way to the bus station, I took some pictures. Used to do this with my buddies and there I started to recall the happy moments of photo shot with Bernice, Suzanne, Teng , Mary, and Amelia.

GUyz... the pic ain't that great without a subject to focus on. Zanne you need to help me out to fill in the blank. Remember? I used to help taking shots of you posing on the ground near the church.

Anyway I switched my focus towards animals now... taking animal behavior this semester hoping I can get something out of it.

Summer 06'

2006-09-22T10:32:00.000-07:00

Whoo Hoo... Phoebe on the run!

Hah! have not been blogging for months. Lots of happenings going on.
Not knowing where to start.
I guess I shall briefly talk about my summer vacation.

Flashback 1 :)
I had a 5 days breakaway to Vancouver in the middle of my summer session I .
I was taking a sociology course about mass media along with Psychology of Disability: Lifespan Perspective.
Consumed plenty of knowledge though I was bored with the discussion going on in Mass Media's class.
Sociology of Mass Media is mainly about the media history of Canada throughout the centuries.
Duhhh I am not a fan of history and never will be... don't even know my own country's story; thus, don't even mention about Canadian history. HIS........story! His........ Story! > history! Now back to my story :)
Hmm what to say about Vancouver? Oh yes! Wanna share a very kinna ... actually not really embarassing moment we had in Vancouver. Bernice and I were both bz with our own junk before departing for the trip to Vancouver. Hence, we were in GET SET GO mood to leave Lethbridge. Not preparing anything... juz our back pack and some clothings. Poped on the bus after Bernice's Grad + Farewell party. Thankx to Akaid for sending us off. Enjoyed the 24++ hours of ride to Vancouver as we are so blessed to have wonderful sceneries as our company. Annoucement made by the driver: "We are here at the Vancouver Station... Thankyou for choosing Greyhound Canada Blah Blah blah..." Guess what? We had forgot to bring along the most important piece of info. We left our Hostel's Add and contact behind only know the rough location around downtown area. It was raining cats and dogs that evening. It took us more than an hour to walk all the way from Greyhound station to the hostel not with an umbrella shaded. Both of us were moistured with rain drops. Thank God for being so merciful ... I had never seen such heavy down pour spending my years staying in Lethbridge. We finally reached our destinition ... HI HOSTEL INTERNATIONAL. The clock struck 30 past 1am. We headed directly to the laundry room right after registering ourselves. Bernice and I dragged our baggage and bags together with tones of water supply dripping along the elevator to our room. Haha it is time to cut off some details... I will post more pics of us in Vancouver below. Phew! What an adventure.
Overall I had fun being with my best buddy throughout the days in Vancouver.

Flashback 2 :)

Summer Session I ended. Bz packing the day before I left for Taiwan. Imagine dragging 2 big piece of baggages from Lethbridge to Calgary> Vancouver> Taiwan & final stop Malaysia. Thank you so much our beloved Pat! Pat offered to drive us and our ABCD I mean the heavy loads of baggages to greyhound station. Tears & Laughters flooded Bernice's emotion as she will be back in Malaysia for good. We 1st went to the airport with aunty Lily, Kim &n Gareth to meet up with uncle Jordan as he jz arrived on the day we left for Calgary. Pat, Peter and Yan send us off and with mixed feelings, Bernice remained silence for a moment. I called Anna... Bernice and her had a good little conversation before kissing Lethbridge goodbye. Bernice and I spend a night in Calgary with a bunch of interesting people ermm... forgot their names ... Alzheimers' Effect haha.. Both Bernice and I were so touch once we stepped into the house allowing the fragrance of CURRY LAKSA ventures through our 5 senses. We spent 3 quarters of the night chatting away in a cozy basement. Everthing seems to be so coincident. One of them are actually from UOL, a graduate with a degree of psychology and the other is planning to write a book about child developement. They have intelligent kids at home and one of them look similar to Daniel, my nephew. I admire their wisdom and learnt that bearing a child is not a task but an essential need for a women. Bernice and I did a little window shopping & I had my new haircut before we left Calgary.

Flashback 3 :)

I am so miserable even till now over the issue of the missing pics taken from Calgary to Taiwan. There was at least 800 pics in it but somehow I juz can't manage to retrieve the file. Still the capacity of the card showed that it is loaded. I wanna apologise to Bernice, Louise, Vincent, Gail and Mary. The pics had all evaporated. Hopefully Teng can do something about it. Thankx Teng! It was a 10 days trip in Taiwan. We had some frustrations going on but overall it is fun. Bernice and I visited Louise, Vincent, Gail and Mary. We spent most of the time in Taipei. Louise and Vincent drove us around Tai Zhong for 3 days. We went to 日月潭 (Sun & Moon Lake), 集集車站: 是台灣歷史最悠久的火車站, 埔里酒廠, 八卦山 ... etc... 特產 :太陽餅、鳳梨酥、一心豆干等等.. In Taipei, we visited, 西門町, 五分埔, 中正紀念堂, 陽明山, 小油坑, 士林夜市, 七张, 桃園, 林口, 淡水, 漁人碼頭, 中山, 大排檔小吃: 蚵仔煎 is what I had most in Taiwan... 蚵 is served generously and you can imagine having a mouth full of big, fluffy, juicy piece of 蚵melting away. I can never forget the taste of it. Siliva keeps piling up now. Enough of the Oyster stuff... Let's look at some pictures... I grabbed them from the net not the originals... :(

CIS BETUL! I can't manage to load any pics ... check the pics out later. Jz enjoy the wordings haha... don't strain your eyes too much!

Vision

2006-06-14T15:03:00.000-07:00

I accept
I surrender
I live

No more tears
No more manipulations
No more trust

Only one
Only God
Only hope

I believe
I can
I stand

Goals in life
Work them out
They are mine

Never depend
Never be fooled
Never give up

Do not ask;
for happiness
for freedom
for satisfaction

Believe it ...

I decide;
to be happy
to be free
to be satisfy

A promise land
awaiting...
my return.

REBORN

2006-06-11T19:09:00.000-07:00

11th of June 2006 11:20am
A gift from God
Jesus my merciful savior.
"By one Spirit are we all baptized into one body." 1 CORINTHIANS 12:13
The quote about is dedicated to me by my pastor, John Moerman.
What a wonderful gift.
I do not deserve all these.
生命是上天給我們的禮物;
生活是我們給上天的禮物.
好好珍惜上天賜予我們的生命,
善待自己,
享受生活,
用超值的快樂, 回敬上天,
以及所有愛你, 與你所愛的人.
想談美麗戀愛, 先讓自己過得好;
要有成功人生, 先將日子過得好.
每一個生命都是上天給予的禮物,
獨一無二, 絕對值得好好
賞試自己,
享受自己,
成就自己.
因為... ... 你值得!

Thankx Anna for such a splendid message.
I am learning the philosophy of God.
I clearly understand I am God's creation.
Hence, he is the one who breaths into me...
and so he is the only God who has the authority to take away.
I treasured God's creation... and I had been blessed with tones of love he provides.

Penner's House Gathering

2006-05-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

As usual... international students get together every Friday night.

But... this Friday is somehow different.

We are having our bible studies at the Penner's.

Penner's new house is located near superstore.

They are so lucky to be given a lot to build this gigantic house.

I luv the view! Enjoy the deck!

They have pool & table soccer in their garage.

Tonight is the session about Da Vinci Code.

Akaid did a presentation on this topic.

We are having more on this coming weekend at E -Free church.

Welcome back to Lethbridge Arif!

We had fun and here! I met BIJOU...

He is so adorable.

I wish to have a doggie now.

Seems like hundreds of things on my wish list.

I want a baby... I want a doggie...

I want to learn swimming, skating, dancing, piano...

not lefting out TRAVELLING!

Everything requires MONEY!!!

One thing at a time..

That's all I can afford now:(

Swim

2006-05-05T12:22:00.000-07:00

Went swimming with Anna and Bernice on Wednesday and Thursday.

We had a great time!

Funny thing is that I am not experiencing any muscle ache.

Good thing... I gotta sleep well at night after the swim.

I decided to go swimming at least twice a week this coming summer.

Thankx to Anna! She is a patient coach. Hah Coaching me really needs patience.

I am a question girl. She put up with all my weird questions.

We enjoy observing cuties in the pool.

I am envy of all these children.

What on earth they think they are doing?

Even a child with his pampers on, was running around.

Hop In and Off the pool without fear!

I wish I wish I was like them!

No panic.. No Fear...

They impressed me... they really did.

Well, at least now I can swim a little... the credit is given to Anna!

Bravo!

Please Shed Away My Solitude

2006-05-02T20:43:00.000-07:00

What is contentment?
What is satisfaction?
What is perfect?
What is desire?
What is happiness?
What is rich?
What is future?
What is past?
What is destiny?
What is the theory of life?
Nothing matters? Do they?
Am I Wrong?
Yes I am definitely wrong!
I know exactly how should I think and act, but why
WHY why whY...I juz...
Forget about it!
Please please please...
I wanna be left alone.
Where are you when I needed you?
I am seeking hard, real hard!
Pray pray pray...
Pray for your guide in everything.
Tell me what do I serve?
I deserve nothing...
Not achievement... Not love... Not even a single penny
I crave for freedom.
Just Freedom!
No more Pushing, No more Jealousy,
No more Lies, No more Competition.
I know I really do...
LIFE GOES ON!
LIFE IS FULL OF CHALLENGES!
Show me...
I am willing to trade my life into your kingdom.
Shed my Solitude.
Please
I pray
Please
Please bring me close to you.

Great Kids, Great Supper

2006-05-01T02:29:00.000-07:00

Rain rain rain
Yeah you are absolutely right Anna! It rains!
Clair gave me a rang early in the morning, offering to drive us to College Drive Church. I told her I am good with taking a bus down to the church. Clair and James stay right at the other end of the town. They will have to make a long trip down to the west side and then head to the south again. Anyway I appreciate your offer... Thankx!

Gareth joined Bernice and me on the bus.
We were right in time for the service. Enjoy praising HIM with songs and hynms!
Bernice and Gareth stayed for the service when I joined the kids for sunday school.

I was invited to share my life as a christian now and a non christian before.
I wanna thank James and Clair for providing such a memorable moment.
I was nervous at first... not knowing what to share and worry if those kids actually do understand me. I told James that it is way much easier to talk in front of the adults compare to kids, especially kids in Canada.
I am glad that things went really well.
Thanx to the kids! They accomodate well, which helps to release my nervousness during the talk. Great Questions! I hope I did answered every single issue being raised in class. Wei Ming spoke about his life of christianity right off the other half hour.
Later, I met Brian.. Nice Chat! Nice guy .... AWwww lucky you Jessica!
I spoke to John... a pastor in CDC church. He is in charged of the Baptism... thus I need to talk to him about my upcoming baptism in May. John left his cell number. I will call him sometime on Tuesday to book a day to talk about my baptism.

With a hungry stomach I went home.
Bernice prepared a bowl of oatmeal for me. In addition, I took some fish balls while waiting my lunch to be served. Both Bernice and I went straight to bed after lunch.

We woke up at 4:30pm.
Took a bath and went on for supper at Tony's place to celebrate a new beginning for Joe as he is moving to Windsor. I pray that he will find excitment and comfort in the new environment that he is going to move in.
Tony cooked most of the dishes. I love your cooking dad! Yummy Yummy!
We chat a little before we left.

A beautiful day with awesome kids and marvelous supper!

Why today?

2006-04-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

Of all the days
Why Today?

Final is on tomorrow... and I am now lost in the nerver ending land where nothing came to sweep away all my resources.
My Nerves are soaking in the state of stress.
701 is in complete darkness!
In fact, the entire block of skyline terrace has a blackout.
Never experienced blackout in this building.
But why today?
I need light source!
Anger brought me nowhere...
eventually I decided to tuck myself in my warm blanket and take a good rest.
I woke up early in the morning at 3:30am hoping the current is back... so I can continue my studies. WORST! no current yet! I can't even take a shower... the water is freezing cold.

Finally decided to study in front of the escalator.

Both Bernice and I sat in front of the escalator in wee hours in the morning making notes,

THanks to Bernice! She supported me all way long!

Persuading me not to give up! Telling I had consumed enough information for the test.

All I need is... RELAX!

I am too tense. My muscles are so stiff!

Time flies... it is already 7am.

I have more light source coming in but my soul can no longer stay put in my body.

Having an unclear mind just ruin my thoughts.

I took a short nap before I step into the war of Brain and Behavior.

It took me less than an hour to complete both the midterm and final.

Finally... everything is done! DONE for the semester! 3 more to go and I am graduating!

I hope for nothing.

Juz pray hard to have a credit in this course.

Nothing left to be worry at the mean time!

Hurray! Holiday is ON!

I went for CAT SCAN right after the test.

The brain scan took me less than half an hour.

Bernice and I took a bus to Value Village and Wholesale to get some grocery.

We met up with Terry, Yan , Kim, Gareth, Mary and Auntie Lily later part in the evening.

All of us went watching a movie named V FOR VENDETTA in movie mill.

A great movie! Recommended!

I fully agree that the people should have the say and not the authority!

The world should be run in peace!

Sometimes, blood is needed and sacrifices are required to gain peace.

Well, lots of thoughts and pops up in my mind.

The world is as complicated as th e neuro transmitters in my brain.

Yeah I admit ! I am going insane with Brain and Behavior!

After movie, John Lu picked me up from UOL.

There I went in a rush to have a glance at my new room. Pretty cozy! Like it!

Good and reasonable rental.

Instantly, I told the landlord that I will move in on the coming June.

Things flow smoothly after the chaotic night before my final.

At last, one thing can be left out to worry about.

I spent a night with Mary at her place as she is leaving the next day.

Planning to chit chat with her till the next morning.

Pity! I fell asleep as my energy had left nothing to be drained.

We did not chat ... Mary is too kind to wake me when she saw me dropped into my dreams so rapidly after such a long tedious night.

仙剑奇侠传电视剧-(胡歌演唱)

2006-04-21T07:39:00.000-07:00

Kiss

2006-04-21T06:47:00.000-07:00

Speed: Alive

2006-04-21T06:44:00.000-07:00

Speed: April

2006-04-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

Speed: Carry On My Way

2006-04-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

Beautiful Lyrics with Aesthetically Pleasing Evening

2006-04-19T17:25:00.000-07:00

今天起作詞：Ivy Neo　作曲：Ivy Neo　編曲：鍾興民

透明的玻璃　孤單身影　
一個人坐在路邊的咖啡廳

今天我決定把你忘記　
不再為你哭泣　不再為你折磨自己

有一種愛情不需要言語　可是你給的愛卻像狂風暴雨
受盡的委屈都留給你　謝謝你陪我到這裡

今天起把你忘記　拒絕你給的甜蜜　
今天起你不再是我的唯一

今天起把你忘記　讓過去化成呼吸　
我愛你只能在夢裡

我們應該要懂得放手　至少我曾經擁有

The song above had guide me along the healing process.

I went taking photos around the University compound this evening.

Mary first suggested and we headed around the school for more than an hour.
Initially, we plan to only take pictures of the practice room but we ended up hitting the keys on the piano then start to play unconciously.

Irresistable!

Later, we were where we were at the very beginning... LIBRARY.

JH called... I almost can't recognise his voice.
He might probably caught a cold... that's my guess but I never asked.
Feel extremely energitic talking to him. A great pal! Funny at times!
Heard he is planning to buy a car... might be PERDANA... WheW!
Good news for him.

Next, my brother went online... we had a short conversation...

Finally, I am back to blogging.... Juz can't wait to complete my final exam on 25th! Almost there!

My Brother is famous!

2006-04-19T10:18:00.000-07:00

Check this site out !!
流行樂與它的琴人─馬逸騰
http://epaper.mis.nsysu.edu.tw/papers/20060101/person.htm
You better thank me dear... I took those pic!:P

Goodbye APRIL 19th

2006-04-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

Sweet memories

Today, April 19th had just ended in M'sia. Still, it is the beginning of April 19th here in Canada. Not too bad for a morning. Suppose we are still together it will be our fifth anniversary. LOL... there ain't any suppose I suppose:) Though we aren't meant for each other but I am glad that you had once left tons of foot prints in my life. The memories we built together will never be earased. Very often I used to have such thought in my mind: Why don't we hit restart,&& Pause it at our favorite parts.We’ll skip the goodbyes? Duh !!! there is no such thing in real ife, if there is, Romeo wouldn't had drank the poison and Juliet wouldn't had died. I live within truth not lies. Fantasize is not my style of dealing with love. I no longer need you to hold me above the world, I can live with only the thought of your smile. The song below is dedicated to you. Never heard it but the lyric speaks!

●朋友　　
作詞：林夕　作曲：蔡一智/蔡一傑　編曲：楊振龍
＊你如果感到太苦悶　就讓大家分一半　
來吧說吧笑吧發洩不滿　我曾經都有這經驗　
現實若不可改變　寧願瀟瀟灑灑過每天
一起一起手挽手　平伏路上面上舊傷口
天生的一對　誰會孤孤單單到永久
一起一起手挽手　無論日日夜夜在背後
溫馨的感覺　隨時讓你擁有
你有我這個朋友　願意永遠也替你分憂　
憂鬱的氣候　和你一手將風雨抹走　
我有你這個朋友　就似有了最暖那雙手　
開心的氣候　陪你高高低低到處走

Shocking News...

2006-04-14T01:38:00.000-07:00

This evening, Bernice and I went to aunty lily's house for soup. Delicious!... no other words best describe. It has been ages I had not taste such appetizing food. I felt like I was in heaven... wooo speechless! My teeth were so blessed to enjoy such mouthwatering food, especially the day after having my tooth extracted. As usual there is lots of chatting going on in the house of one motherly auntie Lily and two brilliant kids. All of a sudden Kim told her mom about a boy got crashed in between library's book shelves. The case was seen as an accident but we doubted. The mystery remains silent. We were suppose to walked to Gail's place to meet up with Zanne after a long hang out in Aunty Lily's place... but we were too tired.., I was still struggling with my fever... effect after the toothache.. but feeling way much better than the past few nights. At least I got to get some sleep. Thank God for keeping me safe through out the entire process from the emergency to the dental. Besides, I wanna thank Ronson, Akaid, Bernice, Janice, Teng, Keong, Jay, Anna, Gareth, Suzanne, Gail, Valerie, Kelly, MAry, .... everybody .... for being so concern! My mom especially .. she must not have been sleeping well these nights. I told u not ot worry ... again you are now diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder.. LOL.. she is gonna kill me for this!

Awesome Clips

2006-04-12T15:51:00.000-07:00

David Tao - Melody

David Tao - 愛我還是她? Who Do You Love?

A-Mei -記得 Remember

10x to Gareth for posting the clips I chose:)
These are juz some of my favourite clips... ENJOY:)

Happy Burfday Auntie Lily

2006-04-10T11:01:00.000-07:00

Happy burfday aunty lily!

We stroke aunty Lily a surprise right at 12am on 10th of April.
Hah ... she wasn't prepared.... in her pyjamas she celebrated her birthday.
Bernice made her carrot cake.

I made her a card along with wishes from suzanne, bernice and me.

Gareth and Kim made the plans work perfectly well.

10x dude!

Auntie Lily doesn't notice us standing right behind her as she was too engross doing some else.

We then start singing happy birthday and she was really hit by the surprise!

BRAVO everybody! We did it :)
Everything is last minute done. Not so perfect.. lots of defect... but we are all happy!

What Makes You a Real Beauty

2006-04-09T19:25:00.000-07:00

Had been eyeing for this watch since early this year...

REAL STYLISH...

Another test:

Phoebe, your Sense of Style makes you a real beauty

You don't need a catwalk to strut your stuff. A cool and confident fashionista like you knows how to look fabulous wherever you go. You've got a good eye for what's hot and what looks good on you. And you're comfortable with who you are and what you want out of life.Sure, you like to look great, but that doesn't mean you follow fads or listen to what other people say is right for you. You're an individual, and you make sure that comes through in everything you do, whether you're at the office, on a date, or out on the town. You can't go wrong when you're being true to yourself. That never goes out of style!

Sympathetic Sidekick

2006-04-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

Hey Kim I am the same as u in this test!

Well, it is not so true about me though :P
Fun Stuff!

Phoebe, you're a Sympathetic Sidekick

No one ever accused you of not having a soft side. And that's why friends flock to your sympathetic ear and well-thought-out advice. You are tuned in to the world around you, and you are always looking for ways to bring people together and enjoy each other's company. While some people might have one or two close friends, you like to spread your wings and socialize with any number of people. You are open-hearted and free-spirited, making it easy for you to find common ground with anyone you meet. Keep up the good work — everyone could use a friend like you.

DEVILISH

2006-04-08T21:57:00.000-07:00

This is what the test has to talk about me!

Phoebe, the emoticon that represents you best is the Devil Face

You little rascal. OK, so maybe trouble isn't your middle name, but we suspect you can be a bit mischievous at times. You're a playful person who enjoys stirring up a little trouble where you can. Don't worry, we won't tell.But we will tell you this: Playing pranks, testing people's naïveté, and fudging the truth a little can be fun. So can finding out the latest gossip — as long as it doesn't hurt anyone's feelings. But you knew that. So log on and keep making life more interesting. Your friends appreciate the entertainment, just be sure not to take it too far, troublemaker!

Oooo is that me huh? TROUBLEMAKER kekeke!

Erik

2006-04-08T00:20:00.000-07:00

we are so international
Erik...the little prince charming

Sago
Treats
Veggie Squares
Potato, Egg and Tuna Salad
Zanne's Fried Rice
Sushi
Corn Soup
My favourite Korean Pancake
Spring Roll
Veggie Salad
Mary's mix veggie curry
Pasta with raisin
Chinese Beef Dish

I am suppose to post this handsome boy much earlier!
Oh well, I am not gonna be able to do it if I choose not to do it now!
I know this sound crazy... posting blog in the middle of the night.
AHA! I am born in the year of rat; so bear with me:)

Op's! while waiting for pictures to upload, I melted into the dreamland of Narnia. Is this sort of an indication? Telling me to start reading the Chronicles of NARNIA? Hmmm.... I plan to start right after my finals. There are 7 books in total... can't wait to flipped through the pages.

Back to the charming little guy.
Wanna know how we met?
Faith brings us together LOL!

The story starts here....
Once upon a time, there was a princess named Princess Aurora Au Huei Ling and a prince named Erik the Prince Charming....
Okay .. Stop fantasizing Phoebe!!! Get Alive... Go on with your post!
It is fun to hallucinate sometimes, that will boost up my level of Creativity!
Mentioning Creativity; Anna, Bernice, and I have a great discussion about IQ vs AQ vs EQ on our way back from church.
The conclusion is AQ & EQ are more practical when it comes to surviving skills.
When the episod of Cast Away happens to us; IQ bring us somewhere but still
AQ & EQ are the ones that we need to fight for in order to live through.

I did studied about the notion of intellegence in my Brain and Behavior,

It is a Spearman vs Gardner theory! I am a Gardner fan... saying that there is a whole bunch of different intelligence in our brain.

There are 7 that he had mentioned.

*language *music *math *space *kinesthetic (motor skills)

*interpersonal (how you read yourself)

*intrapersonal (how you response to others)

Gardner's theory is about intelligence in various forms.

You might be good at Maths and Languages but this does not mean you will be good at handling people & situations in terms of interpersonal and intrapersonal.

God is fair with each and every individual.

All of us are good for something. None of us are good for nothing.

So stop blaming our own intelligence for the failure in life!

Spearman is an IQ fan. He judged human's intelligence based on IQ tests.

To him, it is all about the brain. Neurons work differently in people, which leads to difference intelligence among us.

Off topic again... I will never get to Erik, my main focus of this post; if I still do not have my thoughts put together.

It had been driven apart ever since I turned 22 :(
Thursday night is the night for the exchange student to get together. I am juz an international student but Mary and Suzanne invited Bernice and me. Thanks!
Gareth came along too! Poor Kim need to stay for Yan... doing filming :(
It was a food paradise party. We are all required to bring something from our home country.
Suzanne had both her teriyaki fried rice and M'sian style fried rice nicely done.
Bernice cooked CUCUK! Yummy! yummy!
Mary brought her homemade veggie curry.
I prepared dessert.
All of us enjoy eating.
We had food from Canada, Poland, France, Korea, Malaysia, Taiwan, China, etc..

Here I met Erik. He was sitting opposite of Bernice and me.

OoOoOoO my heart beat is pumping hard now... I juz luv kids....

I had fun taking pictures with this little guy.

Erik's mom told me they both are gonna visit M'sia this coming summer.

I wish I will be in time for their visit.

Too bad I have 3 classes at that time of the year:(

ORANGE is my COLOR

2006-04-07T23:47:00.000-07:00

Phoebe, your true color is Orange!

Is this True???

Is ORANGE really who I am?

Here's what the test says:

You're a bold, confident orange. A warm, powerful color that indicates a strong, welcoming personality, orange is the mark of people who are social and extroverted by nature. Vibrant, with an upbeat attitude, you have a bright, inviting demeanor. Energetic and fun-loving, you're a real friend-magnet. Your easy charm and unassuming manner make you the sort of person people want to meet and get to know better. Well-rounded and fun to be around, you enjoy helping others, so it's no surprise that orange also symbolizes attraction. Orange is an extraordinary color — for an extraordinary person.

女人是一部失落的歷史

2006-04-06T13:27:00.000-07:00

有人說，在歷史中找不到女人，女人是一部失落的歷史。其實，女人不是靠筆記錄的歷史，而是以生命來記錄歷史。人類的誕生、文明的起源，以及現代文明的發展，無線的人生經驗... 就讓女人把一切切的經過記錄在生命裡的每一個小角落。
"女人是一部失落的歷史"是ㄧ本現代文學。作者在書裡和大家分享了一個很有意義的則學. 愛就如距離。我本人非常同意。這一本書是否說出了我的心聲。多謝馬逸騰大哥的推薦。

你以為愛是什麼

2006-04-06T12:35:00.000-07:00

你以為愛是什麼

作者: 呵小宏
出版社:晶冠出版社
出版日期：2005 年 12 月 23 日
語言別：繁體中文

愛，這一本就夠了！　　

「你愛的不愛你，愛你的你不愛」，這是一個很多人都無法避免的「循環」。學會對感情放開些，放寬心，求個自在就好。被困在其中的人，必定不會快樂。泰然處之，會讓自己的視野更加廣闊。單身的人多，還是有伴的人多？單身的時候，就是將自己調適好，做好準備，充實自己，迎接真愛的到來；有伴的時候，就是經營感情，學習相處之道，學習包容體諒，才能感受、感動。無論哪一種人多，都一樣能擁有「幸福」的。

I came across the link of this book from teng's site.

I juz luv it and this is life! Muakzzzzzzz!

I 'm Touched

2006-04-05T13:10:00.000-07:00

"Phoebe Dear its that day of the year we all remember as the day God gave us a Great Gift in having U as our girl Happy B'DAY n GOD BLESS U!"
AHA! this sound familiar... YEah its YOU DAD! Your SMS Brightens my day.

I was nagging Bernice complaining my dad not sending me birthday regards. The funny thing is my mom did this to the extreme. She actually wished me a couple times in March and started wishing me each time she called since end of March towards the beginning of April. On the other hand, Jason, my younger brother seems too bz to remember his sis not to mention birthday but my existance. On 8th of April, Jason answered my called. He was quick.... before I managed to pull out any words from my tongue, he started babbling... wishing me happy belated birthday. Smart but Unforgiven !

Early in the morning, when I was about to go to bed, Keong gave me a rang. I was glad to hear from him. Thanks dude ... your birthday song works! This is the day my cell phone actually did its' ultimate tasks. Julian, Kelly, Kenix, and my beloved dad had sent me text messages wishing me Happy birthday while I was napping that night. Yeah, you read this right... I was NAPPING not sleeping... too indulge in working on my blog.

This time of the year, is the bziest time when everyone is BZ with assignments...Workloads... tests, presentations BLAh Blah blah. I am not excluded in this 24/7 operation. Tense! Due Dates and Finals are all around the corner. Thus, instead of binging, I choose blogging to release my stress.

Bernice was awake the entire night on 4th of April rushing her 10 pages paper. She had only slept for 3 hours and next she was on her secret mission. She walked to the university early in the morning telling me she has to show up for her group meeting. I met her in the library after classes ended. She told me to stay in library until 7:30pm, that's her final class of the day. I promised. I was surfing the net aimlessly untill I met Woan Rou on msn messager. From the computer seat, I switched my scene to the ladies' washroom. Woan Rou and I chat for a donkey's hours. Womens' talk ... she ended the conversation by singing me an extraordinary birthday song.

Real Creative but somehow Out Of tUne.... :P

Time is out of my mind, the minute I stepped out from the washroom, it was already 6:30pm. Still an hour to go. Hmmm I browsed through my friendster, mails and blogs; joys flooded my amygdala, a part of brain that has control over our emotions. Suzanne, Anna and Gareth wrote me beautiful birthday wishes in their blog. I received MayC's online greeting; adding a charismatic rhythm to my day. Kaori and Helen sent me their greetings too! Thereafter, I proceed to my friendster. Lots more brithday messages and testimonials were left to be approved.

Thankx to Mum & Dad, Jason, Bernice, Janice, Mary, Suzanne, Teng, Keong, Julian, Woan Rou, Aunty Lily, Gareth, Kim, Anna, MayC, Kenix, Atikah, Andrew, Chi Kian, Kelly, Wei Ming, Carmen, Ronson, Peter, Akaid, Gail, Kaori, Eric, Jay, Cindy, and Helen!

Anyone missing??? Apologise if there is:)

What is up with Bernice's mission? My Surprise Party! Aw how sweet of her to throw me a surprise party while she has not even taken enough time for her own break. All I can say, she is a Superwomen! Multi-task person LOL can be diagnosed as Dissociative Identity Disorder. Make your choice here Bernice :) I nearly jeopardized the party. I planned to walk home wanting to soak in my bed as I was having a slight migrane. Luckily, I felt better after a short nap in the library.

I guess that afternoon SONIC the HEDGEHOG must had possessed Bernice. Cinderella in apt#701, she did the cooking, the baking, the cleaning, the planning, the invitations, and finally BINGO ooOp's SHE DID IT AGAIN!

I luv what you had done^^ it really touches my heart. Thankx for your support, your patience, your understanding... everything! I am blessed to have you by my side.

Other than you, Bernice, I am so fortunate that you had brought me into your family. I luv them as much as you do!

Thank HIM for our friendship and it will be eternal.
YOu are the BEST!

To all my family and friends... CHEERS!

Bad Hair Day

2006-04-04T08:26:00.000-07:00

Woke up in the morning feeling dizzy. I had have enough sleep and even way too long of hibernation since the weekend. Can't return to the normal self. Whatz normal anyway? We had a discussion about NORMAL vs ABNORMAL in my abnormal psychology class. How do you define normal? You can never find both normal and abnormal in my dictionary coz what I think is normal you might not and vice versa. I need your opinion about abnormality and normal so feel free to leave a line or two to share your views. The network really get on my nerves. SLOW slow slOw...... Stop testing my patience! COOL dOwN dOwn down Phoebe! Why is there such a rush? Frustrations follow with anger. Kept telling myself stop being so moody that will cause rapid aging. Fine! Smile :) HAH you must be thinking I am crazy. Don't worry I am nothing of a schizophrenic probably a little of Bipolar. I came across this quote online "Do not waste your time on Social Questions. What is the matter with the poor is Poverty; what is the matter with the rich is Uselessness." You don't have to be famous to inspire other people. You just need a thinking mind and a sympathetic heart. HOld on a second.... my cell phone is vibrating... hmm Jh juz sent send me a birthday greeting. Right at 12:00 am in Malaysia. 10x buddy!Funny... I am suppose to edit my previous post but ended up starting a new one. That's becoz I had a great time during the weekend and a bad one today so better not stir the sour cream along with the hot sauce. It juz taste awful! Pray to enjoy the rest of my day though things aren't flowing well. Don't expect too much appreciate the gist of satisfaction that will make me merrier:)

City of Angles

2006-04-03T16:07:00.000-07:00

They are just so adorable..MUAKsss Miss them so Much!!!

Awww, isn't she cute? Tanesha ... what a beautiful name unifies well with her tender smile.

My heart melts along with these children.

McCain the Global French Fry Company

Done! Classes DONE for the day... Now is the most exicitng part of my day... writing blog. My energy was completely drained. Nothing unusual... I went to the Practice Room and spent about 2 hours playing 當你孤單你會想起誰 , and Marriage D'amour music by Paul de Senneville and Oliver Toussaint. Kinda upset not being able to play them well. Chaos of sounds surrounded the room and I just wonder how Bernice managed to concentrate on her journals. Anyway, we both headed back to the library around 4pm. Sitting in front of the computer staring at the pictures taken during the weekend fills my hearts with tones of misses. My visit on Saturday 1st of April 06 had crafted a blend of sensation in me. Both visits to McCain & CAMERON FARMs Colony are remarkable. It was educational, inspirational, cutural, historical and EmOtiOnal!!! I just miss the kids:( Bernice and I went to bed late on Friday worrying we might be late for the next morning. Mary reminded us to be punctual or else the bus will juz leave without waiting. Thank you so much Mary! This is the best trip in Lethbridge I can ever experienced. Without your assistance... chances for me to step into the Colony is barely possible. Mary requested her co-ordinator if we can join them in the trip. Initially, this trip is organized especially for the exchange students. We are so lucky to fill in the vacant spots. NO COST needed for the trip! What a deal! Despite, we are served with the fresh homemade food during lunch time. AWESOME! The taste of the fresh strawberries jam still lingers in my mouth. My stomach is grouching now. We departed at 8:15 am on Saturday. We first visited McCain, the Global French Fry Company. McCain Foods is the world leader in the production of frozen French fries - McCain facilities have the capacity to produce about 1,000,000 lbs. of potato products per hour. Amazing !Galloping towards a fertile future, in April, 1999, Lamb-Weston opened a new French fry plant 13 kilometers east of Taber on Highway 3 (65 kilometers east of Lethbridge). McCain’s Foods of Florenceville, New Brunswick opened the region’s third potato processing plant in the summer of 2000 at the hamlet of Chin on Highway 3, 25 kilometers east of Lethbridge. After potatoes, the most important material input in these agri-food processing operation is high quality potable water. The McCain’s plant depends on a continuous supply of water that is pumped from Lethbridge via a 20 inch line to Coaldale and a 12 inch line from Coaldale to Chin. Hence, a huge amount of water is required in processing all the fries you are enjoying all this while. Before gobble up the fries you bought from places like KFC, Mc Donald, and Burger King...have you ever thought of the giant consumption of water wasted on these unhealthy food that we had always crave for? In Southern Alberta potatoes are grown under contract on irrigated land within a 50-100 kilometre radius of the plants. Potatoes require a four year rotation to restore soil fertility and avoid species-specific pests. Thus potato crops are rotated with sugar beets, corn and cereal crops. Potatoes are harvested in fall, stockpiled in climate controlled warehouses on farms, and delivered throughout the year as required by the processing plants. Whew! Good for you.... reading all these facts and seems like I am a profession in the field of agriculture here in Canada. Other than brainstorming the facts, We had an hour tour around the factory. Trust me... the smell of raw potatoes is really GROSS. This.. I gotta give credits to the workers in Mc Cain. BRAVO!

Finding phoOebe

2006-03-30T12:08:00.000-08:00

"Steinkante" taufte Scottie diese eindrückliche Gegenlichtaufnahme. "Stoneside" called Scottie this impresive back light picture.

Blueberry+mAngo+peAch yogurt... yuMMy! yUmmy! Blueberry & Mango (MNG) happens to be my favourite shopping list too! Yogurt is what I had for lunch. I quit frozen yogurt for almost two years. Expensive is the word best describe ... I am gonna pamper myself today... a day where sun shines bright above.... an age for a new breath, a morning for many many smiles, a time for a treat, a relieve to let go..., A Blessing in Disguise! Our real blessings often appear to us in the shape of pains, losses and disappointments. We're all familiar with a blessing in disguise. What is less commonly appreciated is the disguise in many a blessing. All of us have seen good come out of disaster. When you expect good to come from negativity, it will. What you think about, you bring about. Hence, I am now a positive self wanting to bring positive impact to others and me>>>myself. I talked to my X yesterday. It is somehow being planned. I guess God is working on us. I was in the Practice Room down at 5th floor, U-Hall. The reception is bad and I can never recieve any calls. Well... yesterday was odd. My cell phone rang a couple of times. I picked up ... Noises been heard but no one spoke. I finished up my last songs and headed upstairs. Instead of using the elevator... I chose to walk up the stairs. I had stop exercising for a month or so. It is time to get some warm ups. When I was half-way up to 9th floor, my cell phone rang again. I answered.... it was Jh. I am prepared as if I was expecting his call. We started the conversation in a strange way. First, greeting each other; nExt, we got stucked. Still.. I was glad.... things went well at the end. I had accepted the truth that he had changed and so do I. Different thoughts... different goals and devotions in life brought us apart. I cherished the past but things are not the same as before. I used to have doubts in the unclean breakup. Various questions aroused in me. Desired to patch things up were great. I am pleased that I was only thinking about all these and never take it into action. Come to think of it... nothing really matters now. There is no point knowing. Faith is now what I believed. As I always trusted... GOd knows what is best for us. I traded in my sorrow and I was blessed. I put a night in Suzanne's place. Thankxs for her hospitality. Had a good night sleep. Felt energetic this morning; smelt the cool breeze on my way home and I was definitely sure that I had found myself. Success in academic ... magnificent spot in Canada, splendid plans overpowering my mind. I want to waste no more time in this grieving process. I pray that Jh felt the same way. Carry no more burden, shed no more tears, no more association with loss or bereavement; be brave and courageous. We are friends and hopefully the best ever. I had been polished. Cheers!

What a miserable day!

2006-03-29T01:28:00.000-08:00

Love is the sweetest thing when you learn to cherish it. It breaks your heart in times; just let the history go and may a better tomorrow grow in us. Put on a smile each and every second as you will never know who will fall in love with your smile. Expect less and be thankful for the people around us. Have Faith in Jesus our saviour. God Knows what is best for us.

每一天都會有一些事情獎會發生. 每一段路都有集將要來的旅程. 每一顆心都有值得期待的成份. 每一個人都有愛上另一個人的可能. 相愛...就不能害怕會有傷痕. 沒有人完整卻有人能信任才找到永恆.

Finally, I got all the chinese words typed out. It is now middle of the night. Just can't manage to fall asleep. Have a fine chat with my best buddy back home. I am seeking for comfort zone and so happens she is there for me. Thankx a lot Yen Peng. I knew you called Jh on purpose for the sake of me and I wanna apologized for the things he had said to you. Hope you won't take it to heart as you know he is just kidding. Glad to know he is now himself and found his true love. Yes, I did tell myself all these while it is over. People change ...evolution happens and life goes on. Still I have to admit I miss him. Nothing ever matters anymore. Hello???? Wake up Phoebe!!! Stop hoping! Stop waiting! Get Alive!
I am pleased that you messaged me this morning but I was away preparing for school. Never have the time for you even now. I apologized for my neglection. Your greeting lights me up.... Just a second, I paused and revised my thoughts. It was only a friendly hi and nothing much. I felt miserable the entire noon. After working on my term test for abnormal psychology, I was in the Practice room the rest of the noon. Not having any songs in my mine to practice, I just sat there plucking the notes on the piano blindly. I skipped the evening class, went on to the library to edit my blog. It is not about I have nothing better to work on... OH Yes Finals are around the corner... Papers will be dued in no time. Again... my brain is paralyzed.
Something good strikes me now .... Bernice's aunt is conscious. Thank God!
Right at this moment... my mom pops in my depressed thought. I remembered talking to her over the phone while I was having my supper. She is going on MC for 3 days... seeing a doc regarding her menopause problem. She must had felt disappointed not receiving a huge response from me. Don't get me wrong.... of coz I do care but I knew there ain't anything really serious. I knew exactly what you are going through .. I had this knowledge gained from my Psychology of women lifespan. All you need to do is RELAX. You had been suffering from anxiety all these years. Stop worrying. Your son is now a big boy and me ARGhhhhhhh..... is pulling myself together. Bernice is with me and so is Doris (YP). Pat is my mentor and I still have Dr. Mather to push me to the counselor. My roomy, Ronson is acting silly everyday and brings much more laughther in 701. Mary is here supporting me whenever I collapse. Suzanne the best medicine, just by seeing her I feel better each and everyday. Gail the snoopy gal helps alot in providing me notes for Brain and Behavior whenever I skipped the morning classes. Aunty Lily's cooking fills my stomach well and keeps me growing (hopefully not side ways)..... Gareth, Kimberly and Anna are fun to hang out with. Teng, my big bro is now bz with his school activities but he really did a good job leaving his footprints here in Lethbridge; I understand you are popular in Taiwan still I wanna nag you about coming to the KLIA on July 8th 2006. Hope to see you soon! Kelly back in Malaysia is sharing her concern even she is bz dealing with her working life. Thanks to George Zeber, George Ney, Rudy the friendly senior, Tony(Pat's Husband), Glenda and her family, Akaid, Amy, Jane, Jody and all the church members. I love you all.

Life is Precious

2006-03-27T22:24:00.000-08:00

Monday. I went to school as usual thinking where should I continue after a long break from my 1st blog which I did not even complete. I browsed through my notes before my class starts. We have a quiz today. Gail told me not to attend the class of Brain and Behavior. She said whenever I skipped the class, there won't be quiz given to them. Yeah Right. I wish… that I won't have to come for final and everybody gets an A for the entire course. Ian gave a lecture about sleeping disorder. This is a familiar scenario to talk about. I had it in the past while I was in Malaysia and have it recently. I learnt that there is nothing to do with our surrounding which interrupts our sleep. It is all about the transmitters in our brain that creates an odd sleeping rhythm in us. What really triggers odd sleeping rhythm? Moruzzi suggested that it is the brain that keeps us awake, not the noises. Besides, the major reason that causes insomnia is stress. What about stress? People who are struggling from depression often encounter manic stress. Of coz, there is way more contributions towards sleeping disorder but I am now focusing on depression as this is what had been attacking me since last Christmas, 23rd December2005. There is more about sleep walking that we had talked about and also sleep paralysis where a person wakes up, can't move and have panic response. Chinese believes sleep paralysis can be explained as being haunted by ghost but the science clarified everything through research. I myself experienced sleep paralysis recently. I was shocked when I found myself totally freeze early in the morning. I felt something is drawing closer to me but I just can't manage to shout and even move my body parts. I am speechless. Wanting so much to give Bernice a kick on her butt to wake her but still my desire can't transform into action. Yet so near but my inability to move frustrates me. I prayed. Approximately, 20mins passes, I am back to the normal self. Phew!!! What an episode…
OFF TRACK….back to 27th of March 06. Everyday's routine… I walked to the library and sat in front of the computer after attending Ian's class. Before I proceed to my work…. A bad news hit me. Bernice told me that her aunt is now in a dangerous state after the brain surgery. She was initially in good condition when she woke up from the surgery. Never underestimate what happen the next second in your life. She shivered and her entire body turned blue. Her brain was being attacked by other bacteria and she was lack of oxygen. She went unconscious ever since. We are all praying for her. Life is so fragile. So, please treasure yourself and love the people around you while they are still here. I had been grieving all these months for the lost of my love relation. I ruined myself. Tripping over depression, neglecting family and friends, hurting myself to achieve satisfaction from punishment gain me nothing but further lost. Thank God, He had been guiding me all these while. Not giving me extra burden to carry and putting his people around me to give me support and love. I am touched. I promised I will try my best to love the temple you had given me. I pray for the strength. Though, I still can't resist hurting myself in times of sorrow but I am learning.
After talking to Bernice, I emailed huijing, the daughter of Bernice's aunt. Telling her God knows what is best for us and we all need courage to accept and face the reality. The only thing left to do is to love ourselves more and not having our parents to worry about us. Just pray that God will walk her through this critical period.
I completed the final 3 forums for Phil's class. I am almost done with his course at this time of the semester. Two more finals and two more papers to deal with before closing the chapter of spring semester 2006. Just can't wait till it actually ends. Oh yes! Good news, Phil emailed me my grade. Here is what written in the email.
Hi, Huei Ling:
This is a well researched and interesting presentation looking at some of the more controversial aspects of ADD. The information you presentedseems to indicate that there are some other causes of ADD that might notbe well understood, and that there might be a role for nutrition for someof the children with this disorder. The biochemical information seems to support that this is a disorder with a biological base, and perhaps a different understanding of the role of diet may be developing. A reallyinteresting and thought provoking presentation.
Grade: 29/30 A
This news brightens my day. Thank God for being there for me and assist me through such a stressful semester. Without the Holy Spirit, I won't be able to cope well in my academic.

New Beginning

2006-03-22T19:03:00.002-08:00

Daryl Lockyer: General Manager; Funeral Director
Riverview Chapel 610 4 Street South, Lethbridge, Alberta
Wow, tones of stuff bumping up in my mind. As if I have not been pouring things out for ages. Learning a new perspective in looking into the issue which majority of us are avoiding and initially having a fear in it "DEATH". Come on... face the truth we will all grow old someday and things will never change it is all about our conception and vision of changing. So, why are we trying that hard to prevent happennings that is out of our control. Just let it be ! When the time comes, just be brave and face it. Yeah yeah yEah... weird to start my blog in such an extraordinary way. That's me and it is the real me.. AWKWARD!!! After such a long philosophy I now wanna share my experience in visiting MARTIN's Bros Chapel. After attending the final class of the day, I rushed down to MARTIN's Bros Chapel and meet up with my buddy, Bernice. She was with her professor and other mates having a visit in and out the chapel. I requested her to get permission from her prof as I wanna join the visit badly. Though I miss almost the most important part of the visit, which is the session of embalming along with encountering the most astonishing experience that is...... having a close look at the deceased. Phew!!! Bernice shared her first look. I caught up with her eventually. A staff working in the chapel guided me to the group. When I first stepped upstairs, something shinny caught my attention. I saw various caskets being displayed in a private room. I reluctantly turned my eyes towards the group in the room next door as the general manager was giving his little presentation on their funeral programs. It was a brilliant discussion. We got together and chat a little. FAQ session was held downstairs at the chapel. Before the session ends, Dr. Ruth came up to greet me. I told her I am gonna take her course next spring and that I got another chance to visit the Martin Bros Chapel again. This visit gained me a new philosophy. Life is beautiful, Aging is wonderful and Death is a meaningful way to end our chapter in life. Pray for the dead and may God bless them in heaven.